Lately I am having an issue with orthostatic intolerance. The feeling is like that of a bellows that has been squeezed all the way. It needs to open, to “squeeze backward,” but the sensation I have is that the loss of pressure involved in doing so could cause me to lose consciousness. It feels as if the pressure of the cerebrospinal fluid has to be kept high, in order to stimulate my pineal gland, and yet, in addition to being kept constantly high, it needs to go higher.
I feel it in my ears, as well—this issue with pressure, the feeling that it needs to be both lower and higher at the same time. There is a mild sense of vertigo. It reminds me of how I felt after a 3-day Amtrak train ride across the country. My body couldn’t quite tell if it was moving.
It feels a lot like pre-menstruation. As if there is a neuroendocrine “tipping point” that I am near but can’t seem to eclipse. It’s as if body wants to drop the estrogen level, but it needs to keep the estrogen high, in order to keep the orthostatic pressure high.
I don’t know if the issue is one of perception. It could be that my body believes it needs to keep the orthostatic pressure higher than it does.
Photostimulation can make things worse. It is sometimes painful to look at a computer screen, especially after 9 pm. Sunlight flashing off a car’s fenders or off my phone screen can feel especially damaging to my body’s attempts to understand light and time. It seems as if my body is maintaining copper levels that are too high.
I want to drop my copper levels, but to drop copper requires a temporary recalibration of the HPA (hypothalamus-pituitary-adrenal) axis, it seems. Part of the vertigo I have been experiencing may be perceived iodine deficiency. My thyroid (and HPA axis) needs to temporarily speed up if I am to lower the pressure in the system. I can drop copper, so long as I go faster.
UPDATE: It seems to have a lot to do with my body’s perception of pH, which I will address in a new post, “Left and Right of Time.”