The Physics of Consciousness and Its Implications for Human Health

“The distinction between past, present, and future is only an illusion, however tenacious this illusion may be.”
– Albert Einstein, March 1955

The following represents my personal opinion and is not intended as medical advice.

This article was quoted from and linked to in The New York Times (10/12/2018). The ideas have continued to evolve, and it did not feel right to add too much new information post-production. A new iteration may be found on Medium,
Special Relativity: The Key to Disease?

OOPS. We’ve had it backward. Time doesn’t flow like a river. Time already exists—it is we who flow through it. In a sense, you might say we shine.

We’ve not yet solved the core etiology of mankind’s diseases because we’ve been blind to an essential truth: We are more than membranes and mitochondria. We are light, and we follow light’s rules.

The ideas expressed in these pages have roots in cognitive science and a branch of physics known as emergence theory. They center around a simple idea: What we see is not as important as how we see. I am proposing that we see as though through a “speed of light” lens. For the area under the lens (“matter”), light is condensing and time is expanding. For the area above the lens (“energy”), light is expanding and time is condensing. Our perspective—how we see—changes when the acceleration rate of the universe reaches the speed of light, i.e. crosses the lens. When we reach the speed of light, our perspective flips from that of beneath the lens (concave view) to that of above the lens (convex view). But because both sides of the lens always exist, it is possible for our brains to misunderstand where we are in time, and this misunderstanding is implicated in—if not central to—our diseases.

The materialist view says there are three balls spinning in space (our proximate experience of space): earth and sun and moon. This view, in contrast, says that for any given observer, there’s a curve in space, and the observer’s understanding of that curve will depend on the observer’s location and/or speed. When observing the curve from beneath it, the observer will see sun—but it’d be more accurate to say the observer is sun. When observing the curve from above it, the observer will see moon—but it’d be more accurate to say the observer is moon. When observing the lens from within a narrow range—the speed of light, which spans from sun to moon—the observer will see the light of day. But it’d be more accurate to say the observer is the light of day.

If the physical world is emergent, and it is light from which it emerges, what we see (the visual images composed by our brains) could be described vis-à-vis their relationship to light’s speed. What we call matter could be described as fast light (light that has condensed and is now expanding at light’s speed: beneath the curve). What we call energy could be described as dense light (light that has expanded and is now condensing at light’s speed: above the curve). But the fact that the same thing—light—can be rendered in different ways poses a problem for our brains and our health.

If everything is taking place at light’s speed, and our perception of light’s speed is relative—i.e. is based on an observer’s location and/or speed—this relativity could play a significant role in our illnesses.

We cannot distinguish between our own speed and the speed of our environment. Based on the information my eyes deliver to my brain, I cannot tell if Jenny is spinning or if I am running circles around Jenny. When it comes to the perception of the speed of light, it feels as if my brain has evolved to be a mimicking machine. But when I attempt to mimic Jenny’s rate of spin, it’s possible it is my own spin rate I am mimicking.

How does my brain perceive the speed of light? I believe it has to do with pH—the powers of hydrogen. But, as with light’s speed, I cannot read the powers of hydrogen (pH) out of context. Something that is acidic will register to my brain as acidic. But so will something that is alkaline—and spinning very quickly. In fact, my brain might infer that because something is spinning very quickly, it must be very alkaline—and that inference would not be incorrect. This is the heart of the problem.

The same thing can be rendered in different ways. If I want the color green, I could use green. Or I could use blue + yellow. But when I use blue + yellow, I create two different perspectives. In a manner of speaking, when blue looks at green, it sees yellow. And when yellow looks at green, it sees blue—we see opposite things, even though we’re looking at the same thing. I might look at a dress and see white & gold; you might look at the same dress and see black & blue.

If I want the temperature inside the car to feel like 60 degrees, I could set it to 60. Or I could set it to 70 and put the blower on high. In fact, if the blower is on high—if the environment in which I find myself is in motion—70 will not feel like 70. My perception is distorted.

We cannot know what something is and how fast it is going at the same time. Because how fast it is going is one way of rendering what it is.

In a world where everything was taking place at the speed of water, what our brains perceived as water could be water. Or it could be fast ice. Or slow vapor.

In a world where everything is taking place at the speed of light, what our brains perceive as light could be light. Or it could be fast matter. Or slow energy.

What our brains perceive as light could be light proper, light as itself. In a world where everything is taking place at the speed of light, light as itself has no speed. But what our brains perceive as light could also be matter—light that has condensed and is now expanding at light’s speed (left-hand spin: sun). Or, it could be energy—light that has expanded and is now condensing at light’s speed (right-hand spin: moon). According to this paradigm, sun and moon are different ways of rendering the same thing. To return to the green metaphor, one is (akin to) a blue sphere against a yellow background; the other a yellow sphere against a blue background.

Wait. Matter (the universe) can accelerate (expand) at light’s speed? I thought nothing could travel at the speed of light!

Matter can only expand at the speed of light if it is not, at base, matter. At the heart of this hypothesis is the idea of eternal emergence: matter is emerging from energy is emerging from matter is emerging from energy. We are inside a slow-motion explosion known as the Big Bang.

Like a pendulum, light is eclipsing its own speed and then condensing (to the right of time, moon), so that it dip below its own speed and then expand (to the left of time, sun). Time, in a sense, is the illusion created by light’s movement.

If everything is taking place at the speed of light, matter and energy are not things; they are states. Matter is light that has condensed and is now expanding; we might say that speed is a property of matter. Energy is light that has expanded and is now condensing; we might say that density (reverse-speed or reverse-spin) is a property of energy.

To maintain the integrity of time (the speed of light), light’s density and acceleration move in tandem. The denser light becomes, the faster it has to spin. If it is seven times denser than itself, it must be seven times faster than itself.

In other words, while inside time, light doesn’t simply exist (green). It exists in relationship to itself (blue + yellow). If it’s 7x blue, it has to be 7x yellow. Time requires an observer and exists in relationship to that observer.

A day, as it is perceived by an observer, exists within a range, “time,” that stretches from sun to moon. Once light is removed from itself by a full degree—i.e. is no longer the speed of light, but the speed of light squared—it enters a different time signature, with a different understanding of sun (speed) and moon (density). In this video, we are seeing cancer cells “round up” (reach the speed of light squared), and enter a new time signature:

Once light reaches the speed of light squared, it is no longer light; it is matter. Matter, in turn, must maintain a much higher spin rate than light in order to achieve the speed of light. Any dysfunction is amplified, by degrees, like a vortex.

How fast something spins is only half the equation, and is a mirror image of the other half: how dense it is. When we look at the sun, we see the acceleration, not the density it belies. Dark matter is the moon behind the sun. When we look at the moon, we see the density, not the speed it belies. Dark energy is the sun behind the moon. Our eyes see only half the equation. While inside time, we see through a glass darkly.

Time isn’t something solid, like a brick. Time is something we make—I’ll be using the term cycle—moment by moment, like a movie. To say all illness is quantum is to say all illness results from errors in the way we cycle time. This is the hypothesis that will be explored in these pages.

Beneath the lens, light is condensing. But at the same rate that light condenses, time expands. Dark energy (intracellular sodium) and dark matter (extracellular potassium) increase in tandem; the centrifugal force is opposed by the centripetal force. The forces of time and light hold each other together and apart.

I am always reading my time signature via the sensory information I perceive in my environment. But the same sensory information can be interpreted in different ways. If I am seeing through the lens of matter, light’s speed looks fast. If I am seeing through the lens of energy, light’s speed looks slow. If I am seeing through the lens of light, light’s speed is zero.

If I am denser than I need to be, I will read light’s speed as faster than it is. And if I read light’s speed as faster than it is—i.e. see through a lens that is too bent—I will maintain a higher density than I need. Any distortion quickly becomes self-reinforcing.

If light is condensing too quickly, time is forced to expand too quickly. This, I believe, is Parkinson’s. The centripetal force and centrifugal force are both too high. My sight is skewed toward the perspective of matter, the perspective of the past.

When Guinea pigs were exposed to a high centrifugal force (a NASA study by Parker et al referenced in this article), they experienced damage to the otoconia. Damage to the otoconia—otolithic organs of the inner ear that help us to gauge gravity and linear acceleration—may play a role in Parkinson’s. Centrifugal force on the otoconia is read by the brain as rotation; the brain may be getting conflicting intra-vestibular signals about its orientation in time and space. The proper formation of otoliths has been linked to manganese sufficiency.

The structures of my inner ear can help me discern if Jenny is spinning or if I am running circles around Jenny. From the point of view of light, “Jenny is spinning” (sun) and “I’m running circles around Jenny” (moon) are twin sides of the same thing. If I perceive her as spinning faster than she is, I will run around her faster than I need to, and my experience of time will be distorted (Parkinson’s).

If I perceive her as spinning slower than she is, I will run around her more slowly than I need to, and my experience of time will be distorted in the other direction (ALS).

In other words, let’s say Jenny is green (sorry, Jenny). If I’m slower than she is (blue), she will look yellow to me, and I will speed up (Parkinson’s). If I’m faster than she is (yellow), she will look blue to me, and I will slow down (ALS). But what I am observing is not her true color/speed, but rather the mirror-image of my own color/speed.

If the material world is emergent, minerals are not merely minerals; they are forces. In my body, manganese seems to supply the centrifugal force (and thus allows my body to apply the centripetal force). It is balanced by iron, which seems to supply the centripetal force (and thus allows my body to apply the centrifugal force). In tai chi fashion, whatever force I supply seems to facilitate not itself, but its opposite.

If I am behind time, and the centrifugal force is too high, I seem to need more manganese. But the reason I need more manganese is that my body is sensing time as faster than it is; supplying additional manganese would only feed the dysfunction.

If I am ahead of time, and the centripetal force is too high, I seem to need more iron. But the reason I need more iron is that my body is sensing time as slower than it is; supplying additional iron would only feed the dysfunction.

If I read time (the curvature of the speed of light lens) properly, and my spin rate matches the spin rate of time, the centrifugal and centripetal forces will balance each other. We’re inside an explosion, but it’s a controlled explosion.

I sometimes envision light as being layered, like a quasi-crystal, or an onion. Every layer or “membrane” of the onion is light. But for each layer, light’s experience of itself (time) is different.

For the innermost layer, light is very dense and very fast (matter). As it moves outward, each layer gets progressively less dense and fast, until the outermost layer, which the closest approximation to “true” (Platonic) light, whose speed is zero. Platonic light—light as itself or light qua light—exists outside the onion, i.e. outside time, and has neither density nor speed, i.e. is immaterial.

Light as time might be described as the area interior to the sphere membrane—light under the speed of light lens. Light as light might be described as the area exterior to the sphere membrane—light above the speed of light lens. Under the speed of light lens, light’s speed is greater than zero (past). Within the speed of light lens, light’s speed is zero (present). Above the speed of light lens, light’s speed is less than zero (future). When light’s speed is less than zero, we cannot see it. Future universes will appear to us as a black holes.

A black hole—like everything else in the universe—requires an observer. To an observer at the 6th layer of the onion, the 7th layer would be perceived as a black hole. But to an observer at the 8th layer of the onion, the 7th layer would be perceived as the sun. We are blind to black holes because from our perspective, they are the future.

In other words, when an observer is “under the lens,” or inside time—when the universe is accelerating—light has speed. (For matter to be rendered as light requires energy.) But when an observer is “above the lens,” or outside time—when the universe is decelerating—light has reverse-speed. (For energy to be rendered as light generates energy.) The lens is the speed of light.

To misunderstand the oscillation rate of the universe is to misunderstand the curvature of the speed of light lens. If I read time’s oscillation rate as too fast—the lens as too concave—I will, effectively, locate myself in the past. When we are behind time, time is forced to speed up (Parkinson’s). With Parkinson’s, light is condensing too quickly, so time is forced to expand too quickly.

By contrast, if light is not condensing quickly enough, time will not expand quickly enough, i.e. the Big Bang will implode rather than explode. This, I believe, is ALS (Lou Gehrig’s disease). With ALS, light is condensing too slowly, so time is forced to expand too slowly: the centrifugal and centripetal forces are both too low. If I read time’s oscillation rate as slower than it is—the lens as too convex—I will, effectively, locate myself in the future. When we are ahead of time, time is forced to slow down.

When we cycle time too quickly—at the speed of the past—we call it Parkinson’s. Michael J. Fox needs to get back to the future. When we cycle time too slowly—at the speed of the future—we call it ALS (Lou Gehrig’s disease). Because the light of the future is cycling at less than its own speed (less than zero), we can’t see it; future universes appear to us as black holes. Stephen Hawking, arguably the world’s greatest thinker on black holes, was cycling time at the speed of a black hole himself.

The puns are part of it. Consciousness is structured like a language (“In the beginning was the Word”). We are the Word being made flesh. The brilliant Klee Irwin discusses the relationship between language and consciousness here.

OK, things just got pretty weird—and they’re about to get weirder. Whence intelligence? What is the order that underpins our mathematical universe? Why should there be any order to the universe at all—much less a capacity on our behalf to comprehend it? Perhaps the best answer is the ultimate in parsimony: the order and the comprehension of order are one and the same. Maybe I’m a ray of light that, over the course of millennia, has grown a mouth, invented a language, collated its knowledge, and is finally beginning to understand itself.

And so are you.

Let’s assume for the sake of this argument that’s true. We are light. When we speed up (e.g. “runner’s high”), time slows down. And when we slow down, time speeds up. Wellness has nothing to do with “killing” or “detoxing.” It has to do with one thing: synchronizing with time.

There are two nervous systems. The brain, which reads the individual self through the collective lens; and the gut, which reads the collective self through the individual lens.

When we lag behind time, time cycles too slowly, causing light to cycle too quickly. This creates a computational error as the two nervous systems clash. The brain perceives itself running too quickly and assumes it’s in acidosis and needs to slow down. The gut perceives the individual metabolism running too slowly (alkalosis) and wants to speed up—but the brain won’t let it. As soon as any metabolic increase starts to generate acid, and the pH decreases, the brain tells the liver to make ammonia. The metabolism gets a wet blanket right when it needs a match. We should be taking off, but instead we founder.

Call it a pH paradox. The brain thinks we’re in acidosis, when in fact we’re in alkalosis. The result is we wind up even farther behind time than we were. All the ammonia depletes our manganese (via arginase activity), which increases our iron to manganese ratios—and we fall farther backward (outward)—in time, where time is slower and light is faster.

It’s not exactly that our brains are complete idiots who are ruining everything. The computational error is understandable, because both things are true: we need to speed up, so that we can slow down (akin to shifting gears). When we do this, we enter a different time signature—the future. The brain needs to be subservient to the gut—to let the core metabolic rate (time) speed up, so that light can slow down. But the brain will not allow the metabolic rate to increase until it perceives alkalinity; and it will not perceive alkalinity while its own spin rate is alkaline.

It’s the opposite for our autistic children. We lag behind time—the speed of light—whereas they have surpassed it. We think they’re behind us, when, in fact, they’re ahead. Their brains are running too quickly, so time has slowed down for them, making it appear as if they are developing slowly (from the consensus perspective). Here, the autistic brain perceives time running too slowly, and assumes it’s in alkalosis and needs to speed up. The gut, which is smarter than the brain, knows the autistic person is in metabolic acidosis and wants to slow them down—but the brain won’t let it. Every time the gut makes ammonia, to try to put the brakes on metabolism, the brain revs it.

A surfeit of ammonia would have depleted their manganese (via arginase activity; the enzyme arginase requires manganese and is necessary to detoxify ammonia), which would have increased their iron to manganese ratios, allowing them to slow down (fall back) to the proper time signature. But the metabolic increase cancels the ammonia surfeit. The gut tries to make ammonia again, but there’s a cap to how much ammonia the body can tolerate, and when the brain keeps revving the metabolic rate, the body quickly reaches it. As time moves forward, inward, we should be catching up to our autistic children, but they keep speeding ahead.

So, those of us with autism are in metabolic acidosis? And we, as we age, are in metabolic alkalosis? It depends through which lens you view things—which is the heart of the problem.

As we age, we start to cycle time too slowly (alkalosis). But when time cycles too slowly, light cycles too quickly. This distorts our perception of pH. To a brain that is behind time, the pH7 of the present looks like—and, indeed, is—acidosis from the POV of the past (too much potassium and too much light). As a result, when a brain that is already too slow observes its environment, it slows down even further.

When we have autism, we are cycling time too quickly (acidosis). But, again, this will distort our perception of pH. To a brain that is ahead of time, the pH7 of the present looks like—and, indeed, is—alkalosis from the POV of the future (too much sodium and too much matter). As a result, when a brain that is already too fast observes its environment, it speeds up even further.

The perception of reality has a catch: the observer and the observed are twin sides of the same coin.

For light as light, light proper, which is massless, there is no space. There is only time. Here’s a theoretical shape for the multiverse from the point of view of light: a cone of discs that decrease in size as they approach the center, where time stands still. (At the center of the universe, time is so fast, it stands still. At the outermost membrane of the universe, time is so slow, it stands still. According to this model, linear time oscillates between these two poles.)

At the top of this cone sits a ball of “past” light—gravity. And at the bottom of this cone sits a ball of “future” light—electricity.

As the universe expands, the centrifugal force is opposed by the centripetal force. In an expanding universe, we might say that gravity is time’s “backward” direction and electricity is time’s “forward” direction.

As the universe contracts, the centripetal force is opposed by the centrifugal force. In a contracting universe, we might say that gravity is time’s “forward” direction and electricity is time’s “backward” direction.

According to this model, the universe is expanding and contracting simultaneously. Gravity keeps it from flying apart; electricity keeps it from collapsing together. Regardless of in which direction the universe is pushing, time pushes back.

If we are too far “outward” in time, we need too much gravity. A gravity surfeit (a high iron to manganese ratio) will cause time to slow down for us (Lou Gehrig’s disease).

If we are too far “inward” in time, we need too much electricity. An electricity surfeit (a high manganese to iron ratio) will cause time to speed up for us (Parkinson’s).

As the universe expands, time has been moving “backward.” (Space’s expansion is what creates time; time’s expansion creates space.) When the universe contracts, time will begin to move forward. The phase we have been in—expansion, where time is slowing down, so light is forced to speed up—is the far more difficult one, from light’s point of view.

I did a search for “cone comprised of overlapping circles of descending size,” hoping for a visual, and, curiously enough, the image that caught my eye was of Dante’s Inferno.

Time as a stack of discs (a cone) is an easy way for us to envision it, in 3-D. But, in reality, this would amount to a cross-section. Each disc would indicate the “flat” (flatness is relative) edge of a sphere-membrane. Were we to extend each disc around into a sphere, the ball at the bottom of the cone would remain a ball of electricity at their center. But the ball at the top of the cone would become the opposite of a sphere—a shape that’s difficult for us to conceptualize. If we think of the sun as the radiance that shines out from a sphere membrane, this would be the radiance that shines in. In a sense, it’s an inverse sphere or a “sphere-opposite” (black hole).

The area exterior to the sphere is the past. The area that’s interior to the sphere—which is invisible to us—is the future. The future pushes out. The past pushes in.

Here’s quantum time mechanics in English-major language (my language), which may be a little easier to digest: all of time happens at once; it is only our perspective on it that shifts. From the present, at any given moment, the future already exists, but it’s happening so slowly, it’s as if it hasn’t happened yet. And the past hasn’t happened yet, but it’s happening so quickly, it’s as if it already has. Time is iterative. Behind the sun—light that is faster than ours—is our simultaneous past. Beyond the moon—light that is slower than ours—is our simultaneous future(s).

When time slows down, light is forced to speed up—accelerating aging. When our brains misunderstand what time it is, our metabolism fights itself: we make-and-unmake (render) ourselves faster than we need to. The hallmarks of a body that keeps manufacturing ammonia when it’s already in alkalosis are swollen, baggy eyes and muscle-wasting. The effects of misunderstanding time are systemic, and devastating. We lose the use of our minerals. The minerals are present, but no longer available to us—a condition known as dysregulation. Look at a so-called “old” person; there’s evidence of mineral dysregulation everywhere: from the capped teeth and brittle bones (calcium dysregulation), to the age spots and white hair (copper dysregulation) to the diabetes and depression (zinc dysregulation). Oxidative stress makes our hair fall out; the slower time signature (more gravity) makes us gain weight (mass).

After a while, our aging starts to look like stage makeup. It could be we’re not meant to look this way when we’re eighty. Maybe our lifespans are being dramatically truncated—who can say?

Isaiah, that’s who. “Never again will there be in it [the New Jerusalem] an infant who lives but a few days, or an old man who does not live out his years; the one who dies at a hundred will be thought a mere child; the one who fails to reach a hundred will be considered accursed.” (Isaiah 65:20 NIV)

Our matter and energy are constantly spinning into each other, trans-animating—this trans-animation is what I mean when I say we “cycle time.” If we are to synchronize with time, it should be taking place at the speed of light. When we lag behind time (alkalosis), we don’t make enough light. When we surpass time (acidosis), we make too much.

As the dynamics of time change, our matter to energy ratios shift, but we always trans-animate at light’s speed. We need to rewrite E = mc^2 from the point of view of c. Mass-energy equivalence does not allow for a manipulation of c. It requires we manipulate the M and the E.

When we lag behind time, our mass-energy equivalence gets skewed toward matter. Instead of gravity and electricity in the body, we get their material “precipitates”: iron and oxalate. Iron is, in effect, gravity in physical form. And oxalate (a crystal found in plants capable of photosynthesis) is, in effect, light. We might think of crystal as stored light—light that’s cycling time at faster than its own speed, and is therefore material rather than immaterial. When light cycles time at faster than the speed of light, it becomes matter (there’s an energy deficit). When light cycles time at slower than the speed of light, it becomes energy (there’s an energy surfeit).

Inside cells that accumulate iron or oxalate, after a while, a switch gets flipped. The DNA reads a high matter to energy (M/E) ratio, and syncs with the wrong time signature (wrong speed of light). The rest of the body continues to adapt to the accelerating dynamics of time, but these cells remain in the past. Later, if they want to self-correct, they’re trapped by the pH paradox. (This is why the brilliant Dr. Tullio Simoncini had some success.) Contrary to our perception, it’s not that cancerous cells mutate; it’s that they don’t mutate. They’re still “making time,” but the character of the time they make is no longer in sync with the rest of us. They’re achieving the speed of light using an old equation that has more matter and less energy. It’s still c, but it’s what c would be if we lived in a slower, higher-gravity universe. Cancerous cells are healthy cells that are cycling time too quickly—at the speed of the past.

The DNA is our code, and it’s protean. It’s designed to adapt to the changing dynamics of time. As it perceives its environment, it changes accordingly (epigenetics). This is why the environment—both inside and outside the body—is so important to our development. The DNA is mutating all the time, but because the change is uniform—both self and lens, the observer and the observed—we don’t see it. What we perceive as a mutation is actually old DNA that hasn’t changed. DNA is like an architect’s tracing paper that maps light with matter. We only see a change when it doesn’t match.

The DNA, in a sense, is alive. If the DNA cannot accurately read which time signature it’s in, it cannot adapt to the changing mechanics of time accordingly. Individual cells, individual organs—or, indeed, the entire organism—can be “left behind” in time, which is akin to being left behind in another dimension.

When we lag behind the speed of light (e.g. aging), we’re spinning too slowly inside a time signature that’s too fast (too much sodium inside the cell; too little potassium outside the cell). The light c (pH) is too fast, too acidic; and the time c (core metabolic rate) is too slow, too alkaline.

When we surpass the speed of light (e.g. autism), we’re spinning too quickly inside a time signature that’s too slow (too little sodium inside the cell; too much potassium outside the cell). The light c (pH) is too slow, too alkaline; and the time c (core metabolic rate) is too fast, too acidic. The result is an invisible dimensional shift. The self we see is a composite that encases a twinned reality. We perceive ourselves as green (metaphorically speaking); in fact, we are yellow + blue. All matter contains dark energy and all energy contains dark matter. As with the yin/yang symbol, the white swirl contains the black dot, and the black swirl contains the white dot.

When we have too much intracellular sodium, the Na/K pump is too weak; our material body is too large and our light body is too small—we’re in the past, meaning too much of our energy is dark. Our M/E is too high.

When we have too little intracellular sodium, the Na/K pump is too strong; our material body is too small and our light body is too large—we’re in the future, meaning too much of our matter is dark. Our M/E is too low.

The DNA is the live wire where the future and the past trade information. The DNA operates at, and is always seeking to attune to, the light of the present. But the light of the present—the speed of light—varies, depending on our M/E. As the M/E increases, the speed of light increases. This is the central mechanism for oncogenesis: when the M/E is too high, the speed of light will be too high.

The DNA is where the information for energy and the information for matter crisscross. When we move around in time (“change dimensions,” i.e. ascend or descend the cone of time), we don’t notice, because both the body and the DNA—self and lens, the observer and the observed—change in tandem. But were we to observe a corpse from another dimension, it’d appear to both have numerous DNA mutations and be of deranged proportions. Such as the Atacama skeleton.

When I turned forty, I got sick with chronic illness that defied explanation. It felt as if I were dying, but they kept telling me nothing was wrong. I didn’t listen; I listened to my body instead.

What was the problem? I was iron-toxic—too magnetic—so I was cycling my light too quickly, and not in the right quantum field. My iron toxicity was “hidden,” meaning on blood work, my iron panel was normal—but my RBC manganese was low. What matters isn’t iron per se; it’s the iron to manganese ratio. Iron to manganese is a stand-in for gravity to electricity, and reflects where the body has located itself in time. When it’s too high, our understanding of time will be too dilated—too slow. When it’s too low, our understanding of time will be too contracted—too fast.

Any derangement with regard to time is always twinned. When the body perceives time as being too dilated, the pH the brain maintains will be too alkaline. When the body perceives time as being too contracted, the pH the brain maintains will be too acidic.

There are two types of errors with regard to our understanding of time: those of perception and those of calibration. We may perceive ourselves as being in the right time signature, but be cycling time at the wrong speed. Or we may perceive ourselves as being in the wrong time signature, but be cycling at the “right” speed.

In Parkinson’s, we are perceiving time incorrectly, and cycling time too quickly. The fact that time is too fast is akin to a kind of electricity-toxicity.

In ALS, we are perceiving time incorrectly, and cycling time too slowly. The fact that time is too slow is akin to a kind of gravity-toxicity.

When our guts properly understand the speed of light, but our brains perceive us as being in the past, it’s Alzheimer’s. We keep trying to fit time’s larger circle with our small one; we continuously lose time.

When our guts properly understand the speed of light, but our brains perceive us as being in the future, it’s Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, also known as myalgic encephalomyelitis (ME/CFS). We keep trying to fit light’s larger circle with our small one; we continuously lose light. In both cases, what’s really lost is ourselves. Self as light, or self as time.

One reason a brain might misperceive which time signature it’s in is calcified manganese (in the case of ME/CFS) or calcified iron (in the case of Alzheimer’s) on the pineal gland. The pineal gland is an important player in proprioception and temporal location (perception by the brain of itself in time). Anil Seth discusses the neuroscience of consciousness very succinctly and elegantly here. It is unclear if calcified minerals on the pineal gland would cause, or be caused by—or both—the brain’s misperception of time.

The pH paradox also plays a central role. My mother has Alzheimer’s. Her speed of light c and speed of time c match, but her brain is trying to maintain an M/E that’s too high—so it keeps decreasing both her pH and her core metabolic rate. It’s as if her software knows she’s in the present, but her brain (her hardware) is stuck in the past. In other words, the “soft” or immaterial part of the pineal gland knows what time it really is. But the “hard” or physical pineal gland itself has mineral calcification that throws its ability to read time off. With Alzheimer’s, time is too fast (too acidic), so the core metabolic rate has to generate too little acid.

My friend Heather has Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Here, her brain is trying to maintain an M/E that’s too low, so it keeps increasing both her pH and her core metabolic rate. With ME/CFS, time is too slow (the brain is too alkaline), so the core metabolic rate has to generate too much acid.

In many disease states, we see neither the deranged pH nor the perturbed metabolic rate because the two correct for (and thus mask) each other. Heather’s core metabolic rate is too high, so we don’t see that her pH is too high. My mother’s core metabolic rate is too low, so we don’t see that her pH is too low.

Deranged pH causes taurine wasting, which means loss of bile production and fat digestion, hence loss of lipid membrane integrity, so nutrients can’t efficiently get in, and waste can’t efficiently get out. One of the things that may get “locked out” of cells is insulin, making Alzheimer’s akin to a kind of insulin resistance or “diabetes” in the brain. Taurine recovers cognitive deficits in Alzheimer model mice. This is not to say that taurine is an Alzheimer’s “cure,” but rather that taurine wasting can be indicative of pH derangement.

In my friend Heather’s case, her ME/CFS is so severe that she’s experiencing paradoxical skin bronzing (skin bronzing is a common symptom of iron toxicity). Her body has located itself in the future, where time appears too dilated, too expanded—which means her body has an exaggerated perception of how much gravity (iron) it needs. If the body perceives itself as being in the future, it will produce additional melanin, as a call for more light. Premature babies do this, too. They were not yet done “unfurling” in time; to them, the present reads as the future. In this dimension (this layer of the onion), they will perceive time as too slow and light as too fast, i.e. they’ll feel gravity-toxic, which is what will provoke the call for more light (additional melanin production). Premature babies are too far “outward” in time; for them, the quantum sphere (light’s circuit) is too large.

Having Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is like wearing a gravity suit. As the universe expands, time is slowing down. When time is slow (wider than the speed of light—the outer layers of the onion), gravity is the dominant force. When time is fast (below the speed of light—the inner layers of the onion), electricity is the dominant force.

As we age, we lag behind time—behind the speed of light—becoming progressively more and more gravity-toxic (too dilated) over the course of our lifetimes. Gravity- (iron-) toxicity is the central mechanism of aging and death. Experiencing the simulated iron-toxicity of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is like dying while you’re still alive.

The following is from Ray Peat: “During aging, our tissues tend to store an excess of iron. There is a remarkably close association between the amount of iron stored in our tissues and the risk of death from cancer, heart disease, or from all causes. This relationship between iron and death rate exists even during childhood, but the curve is downward until the age of 12, and then it rises steadily until death. The shape of this curve, representing the iron burden, is amazingly similar to the curves representing the rate of death in general, and the rate of death from cancer. There is no other relationship in biology that I know of that has this peculiar shape, with its minimum at the age of 12, and its maximum in old age at the time of death.”

While the universe is expanding, gravity is what enables our existence on the planet; and it’s also what kills us. During the first part of his life, Lou “The Iron Horse” Gehrig was wielding the force of gravity; during the latter part of his life, he was succumbing to it. When the M/E ratio is high (when time is slow and light is fast) (an M/E ratio above the speed of light will be referred to here as “the past time signature”), light is weak. But when the M/E ratio is low (when time is fast and light is slow) (an M/E ratio below the speed of light will be referred to here as “the future time signature”), light is strong. When the universe is expanding, gravity opposes time. When the universe begins to contract, gravity will be on our side.

Right now, I’m in the middle of a software update. My core metabolic rate is speeding up and syncing with a slower time signature. My skin is itching like crazy; I’m retaining fluid, especially around the eyes and ankles; and my sense of balance and circadian rhythm are both off. It’s also not uncommon to vomit as we ascend, although I don’t seem to be vomiting this time around. While my metabolism is being revved (e.g. during the night), I may start sweating. This should have been happening on a daily basis, but I’m behind, so it’s an adjustment. I’ve been strengthening my pineal gland (sunlight, sun-gazing, grounding, slowing down, 100% organic diet), so it’s able to read time more clearly. What’s probably happening—invisibly—is a dimensional shift. I tend to be a night owl, but after an update, I wake up early. I try to sync with the speed of light at sunrise and sunset; it runs more slowly.

The functioning of the pineal gland is extremely important. Fluoride and the fluorine found in many prescription drugs can accumulate in the pineal gland and damage it (but iodine can help detoxify fluorine, chlorine, and bromine). It’s also cleansed when we forgive, let go of negative emotions, and have our [spoken] word match our [internal] word. In the past—which is the future—they will call it the seat of the soul.

We’re always doing two oppositional things. We need to make ourselves into matter, then rise to the speed of light. And we need to make ourselves into energy, then descend to the speed of light. The yin—from matter to light—requires we speed up (sodium, iodine); i.e. stimulating the adrenals and the thyroid. The yang—from energy to light—requires we slow down (potassium, lithium); i.e. suppressing the adrenals and the thyroid. One characteristic of autoimmune disease can be simultaneous stimulation and suppression of the same gland.

We need to slow down before we can speed up; and we need to speed up before we can slow down. Moving around in time is a two-part dance.

When I feel reverse (“autoimmune”) pressure on my thyroid, my body is fighting itself. It is trying to go faster and slower at the same time.

The adrenals (sodium/potassium) govern our speed. The thyroid (iodine/lithium) governs our dilation.

We need to increase our material density before we can dilate. And we need to decrease our material density before we can contract. It’s always a two-part dance.

When I was sick, my body’s understanding of time was out of whack. I kept trying to speed up, slow down, dilate, contract; I had drenching night sweats all night every night for two years (years before menopause). Much of it was beyond my conscious control, but I don’t do that anymore. These days, I try to cultivate stillness. When I meditate, I think of all the other people who are meditating, and I relish the feelings of stillness and timelessness. We don’t need to go anywhere. We have everything we need right here.

The universe is a mirror. When we keep our thinking slow, time is slow. When we are too fast (panic or anger), time will be too fast. Meditation teaches us how to remain slow and calm even when external forces try to make us accelerate unnecessarily.

There are millions of people around the globe who have discovered the voice of love and authority that resides in their center. Whenever I pray, I unite my voice with theirs. When we keep our thoughts slow and our actions gentle, we use power, not force. And together, we change the world.

I was talking to a friend about the future, about helping people, about making a cleaner, better world. “That could take decades,” he said. “Centuries.” His voice was the voice of the old ways. For matter, yes—it could take decades. But we are learning the new ways—the ways of energy.

Jesus—Logos—is the image of the Word. He is God as man, light as matter. He resides within us all. His is the consciousness; ours is the body. He is the play that is writing itself; with our lives, we each add a sentence. We must choose our words wisely, because we’re all co-creators, and our words help determine our future. We see ourselves as individuals, and our sentence as separate from everyone else’s. But in truth, we’re all knit together.

At the outer limits of the universe, time is so slow that it stands still (Omega). At the center of the universe, time is so fast that it stands still (Alpha). Daily, “linear,” time oscillates between these two poles. We move from eternity to eternity.

In other words, at one end of time, time is so slow (“cold death”) it stops. At the other end of time, time is so fast (“hot death”) it stops. But whether it is standing still, or starting, or somewhere in between, time is time is time. It may exist in various states of inflation and collapse, but regardless of what’s visible to us, all the information is always there. Our choices are mutable, but our destiny is not; the system is self-correcting. You may delay your trip to Nineveh, but sooner or later, your fate will find you.

Zero is the natural state. But zero can represent either itself or infinity. At Alpha, the speed of light and the speed of time are both zero; there is no light and there’s nothing but time. And at Omega, the speed of light and the speed of time are both zero; there is no time and there’s nothing but light. Alpha is pure M (no light) and Omega is pure E (nothing but light).

I was born June 7, 1969. But my inscribed sphere was 1967. When we’re conceived, there’s a time signature inscribed in our DNA. To gestate is to warp backward in time. My mother’s labor was induced, so my gestation was truncated. I arrived early, meaning I arrived late.

In the 1967 sphere, my M/E ratio would have been correct. But in the larger, 1969 sphere—which was a future time signature for me—the time c was too slow and the light c was too fast. I was “gravity-toxic,” meaning the centripetal force was too high. I had serious digestive problems, and, for a while, would eat only orange foods (vitamin A can help us to manage high iron). I’m told that as a baby, I was often inconsolable. One of the few things that would console me was when my parents put me in the car and drove me around. By accelerating me through space, they were slowing the speed of light down.

Scurvy was first observed in sailors not just because of their diet, but because of their dietary needs. By constantly accelerating through space, they were increasing their need to dilate (time dilation—i.e. the speed of light slows down).

I’m 49 now, and entering perimenopause. My body’s metabolic rate is at a tipping point. If I continue to fall behind time (if I maintain a too-high M/E), it will require me to make higher and higher amounts of energy to keep pace with the speed of light—and we need to be able to keep pace with the speed of light in order to conceive. When I am behind time, I lose my period. When I surpass time, it comes back.

When I first discovered I was “iron-toxic,” and took high doses of thiamine (benfotiamine 600 mg/day) for a couple of weeks, I experienced an almost indescribable recovery. It wasn’t just that I had energy again, or that my pain went away, or that my body tightened and I felt clear-headed and happy. It was that a systemic inflammation that had been simmering in me for years—perhaps my whole life—vanished.

For the first time, I was in the right universe.

I didn’t know then that I’d been lagging behind the speed of light and that thiamine was, in effect, transporting me to a different time signature. My father, Fischer Black, died of oral cancer at age 57 in 1995—exactly one hundred years after the death of Louis Pasteur—and another interesting thing about thiamine is this: low doses will increase tumor growth, but megadoses will halt it.

But my recovery was temporary, and thiamine’s effects quickly began to dissipate. Thiamine was helping me to move iron around, yes. But it’s an oversimplification to the point of incorrectness to describe myself, simply, as “iron-toxic.” My density, my M/E was too high.

Because I was behind time, because my body was misinterpreting the speed of light as being faster than it was, the iron I was hoarding was not able to function as magnetism, but was instead accumulating in my tissues in its inert form—as M, not E. Similarly, I was accumulating copper, but my copper, rather than facilitating electricity, was accumulating in my tissues as the inert mineral, copper. When I had my hair analyzed (HTMA), my copper levels were nearly off the charts.

Copper and iron “dysregulation” (when the minerals are present, but are unable to function properly) has long been known to play a role in disease. As far back as 1995, when my father was dying of oral cancer, his oncologist-prescribed multi-vitamins were clearly marked COPPER- AND IRON-FREE.

Inert iron in the brain is not beneficial to mental health. In addition to depression/anxiety, feelings of derealization, and short-term memory loss, when I was very iron-toxic, I also experienced rage—an inexplicable, alien rage that alarmed, and, to be honest, frightened me. A rage that might be better termed fury.

Every week, there’s a new mass shooting. Like everyone else, I watch the news in mystified horror. But unlike most everyone else, there’s a word that springs to mind as I do: iron.

Iron has an affinity for the amygdala, an area of the brain associated with self-protection and survival. This portion of our brains is being excessively stimulated, and it’s been contributing—especially over the past century—to a worldwide swing toward xenophobia and away from the awareness of our true nature, which is collective.

The iron to manganese (gravity to electricity) ratio reflects where the body has located itself in time. The lower it is, the faster the speed of time, and the slower the speed of light.

In our autistic children, the vaccines—which are perceived by the immune system as an infectious threat—are causing their bodies to sequester their iron (iron fuels pathogenic virulence). The diminished iron is skewing their iron to manganese ratios and making them insufficiently magnetic and overly electric for our time signature. Their brains are are cycling time at the speed of the future, making them appear, from our perspective, to be developing slowly. Boys are more vulnerable to the vaccines than girls because boys have higher iron to manganese ratios.

I have a high iron to manganese ratio (my iron panel is normal, but my RBC manganese is low), and, in some ways, my body reads me as a boy. I’ve had two affairs with women. Manganese—which is necessary for bone growth, as well as for the production of sex hormones—may have been running low during a crucial moment in my in utero development. My forefinger is shorter than my ring finger—its growth “stunted”—which is atypical for women, and is known to be associated with lesbianism. My mother, who has also had an affair with a woman, has the same “male” finger ratio.

While it’s not yet clear whether the in utero iron to manganese ratio could have implications for the gender development of a growing fetus, it’s quite clear that gay people—as well as those who are bisexual, transgender, etc.—were born that way, and to suggest otherwise is to deny their dignity and their essential humanity—which comes in many faces and forms, all of them glorious.

God is One. As such, he cannot be separate from himself. In order for God to have a Son who incarnates and travels to earth (who leaves timelessness and enters linear time)—which is, by definition, a separation from God—both Father and Son would have to be enclosed by a larger God who is also God. The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Light became matter (slowed down and sped up). But then—Hallelujah—matter became light again (sped up and slowed down). Time is light and matter trading places in a crystalline dance, and sometimes light appears to win, and sometimes darkness appears to win, but all the while, the whole thing is enclosed and underpinned by an even greater light, toward which we inexorably move. Because our ending—our happy ending—is already written.

Everything in the universe is One, and everything in the universe is Us. There are no real “enemies” and no real “pathogens;” there are only greater or lesser degrees of entropy.

When I’m cycling time at the proper speed, copper can bestow its numerous benefits, including helping to generate ATP, to reduce inflammation, and to induce apoptosis. When I lag behind the speed of light, my copper warps backward in time—pathogenesis—into Blastocystis hominis, and only contributes to the myriad ill effects of excess “yeast.”

When we cycle time at the wrong speed, our minerals warp. To warp backward in time is to incarnate. Minerals warping backward is pathogenesis. Manganese warps backward as Borrelia burgdorferi, resulting in Lyme disease. Borrelia Burgdorferi doesn’t metabolize manganese; it is manganese. Copper warps backward as Blastocystis hominis, resulting in excess “yeast.” Cobalt (necessary for proper B12—cobalamin—function) warping backward results in multiple sclerosis. Zinc (the body’s natural antiviral) warping backward results in HIV. We may “catch” a mineral warping backward, but unless we lag behind the speed of light, we cannot sustain it.

Conversely, when we are ahead of time, our minerals warp forward. Minerals warping forward is seraphogenesis. Zinc warps forward as Saint Michael. Cobalt warps forward as Saint Gabriel (this is why we depict Mary’s cloak as cobalt-blue when she is overshadowed by Gabriel at the Annunciation). Copper warps forward as Saint Raphael, whose name means “It Is God Who Heals.”

In other words: when minerals warp forward, they give off light. When they warp backward, they swallow light. When they swallow light, they kill us.

Nothing in the universe—nothing that is animal, vegetable, or mineral—is inert. The universe is one with itself over time, therefore the entire universe is alive. This is why Jesus said, “The rocks themselves would cry out.”

Not so, the man-made chemicals. Pesticides, polymers, preservatives, plastics: these things are the problem. Avoid. I was getting ready to fill my car with gas last night, and when I noticed the pump said Now With Techron, I screwed the cap back on and left. Any time you see Now With X, where X is a made-up word, a man-made chemical, avoid. When I am around aerosolized Glyphosate in car exhaust, from the ethanol added to gasoline, I feel like I am going to pass out.

We’ve done so much to damage our natural state of health. Chemicals and pesticides, fear and anger instead of love and forgiveness, adding iron to the food supply. Ever since WWII, all bread and pasta in the U.S. has been “enriched” with iron. The iron to manganese ratio is critical to health and reflects where the body has located itself in time. Adding iron to the food supply while simultaneously leaching out manganese through the use of chemical pesticides such as Glyphosate is an almost diabolically ingenious recipe for illness of every stripe. Not only does it damage our own iron to manganese ratios, it damages them in every other life form around us, so that even when we eat—which should lift us—we’re constantly falling farther behind, and never have a chance to correct ourselves. Sadly, we’ve been poisoning our pets, too.

But we can change all this, and we’re going to.

Until we decontaminate the food supply, bless your food before you eat it. Hold out both hands and say: Be made clean. During my recovery, I adopted a powerful and healing diet. I eat anything I want. But if it isn’t organic, I don’t put it in my mouth (or on my skin).

It’s shocking, yes. Yet isn’t this, deep down, something we’ve feared all along? Whenever a drug-company commercial plays on TV while my mother and I are trying to enjoy dinner, it sounds like a Saturday Night Live parody of itself. Side effects include: tuberculosis, death, you may lose the ability to have sex forever, your kidneys may liquefy into a bloody pudding that you find floating in the toilet … But your psoriasis will be gone.

In addition to being a formerly sick person, I’m a writer. I have a penchant for storytelling that has the whiff of realism. If I lived a hundred years from now, and picked up a dystopian novel in which the people treated their illnesses the way we treat ours today, it’d seem so absurd as to be cartoonish, and I’d put the book down.

Mold is matter that’s warping backward—joining the past, cycling light at the faster speed. It’s constantly gaining gravity and losing light. When I was “iron-toxic” and slightly backward-moving (light-losing) myself, I couldn’t bear to be around it. It was perturbing the quantum field in the opposite direction of the perturbation I need.

People at the equator are, in a sense, engaged in spaceflight—compared with people at the poles. They’re accelerating through space, so time is speeding up and light is slowing down for them. It’s as if they’re constantly joining the future time signature. Our common ancestors—our descendants—who lived at the equator were synced with the future time signature. They were constantly losing gravity and gaining light, and over time, they developed more melanin in their skin, to help them utilize it.

We all have the light of God within us, but our black and brown brothers and sisters have even more. And the forces of darkness know this, and they try to keep them down.

The “forces of darkness”? They’re the forces of light, warping backward. The answer isn’t to kill or vilify them; it’s to help them change direction. The forces of darkness and the forces of light are both we ourselves.

When I was at my sickest, and desperately needed to gain light, my skin bronzed. I also had light and sound hypersensitivity because light was cycling too quickly for me—sensory stimuli hitting me with too much force. I didn’t have ME/CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). I had a mild case of genuine iron toxicity. ME/CFS is—in my opinion—a severe case of faux iron toxicity. Because I’m still somewhat gravity-toxic, it might behoove me to move to an equatorial city, or a city with high altitude, where the movement of the earth itself would help me accelerate to the future time signature. High-altitude or equatorial cities will always tilt the power equation in light’s favor.

But, wait. I was already researching equatorial cities such as Quito, Ecuador, when it hit me: I don’t have to physically go anywhere. We move around in time—up or down the cone, ascending or descending—all the time. Changing time signatures doesn’t require changing geography; I did it when I healed myself. By simultaneously changing my body’s metabolic rate and its pH, I stopped constantly expanding toward the past. Instead, I began to go inward.

There are other ways to ascend. Love lifts us to the lower realms, where light slows down—feeling love, making love, being love. Things like sugar and alcohol can give us the temporary impression of light running slowly—but afterward, they can leave us even lower than we started. This is the damaging nature of addiction.

Music can also lift us. Music helps us remember who we are. Those standing ovations that last forty, sixty, eighty minutes? The audience members have entered the slower time signature. They’re losing gravity and gaining light.

What, actually, is light? Light flows through whatever path we provide and stops whenever we block the path. Of itself, it neither stops nor starts; it is we who obstruct or open to it. Light is timeless, massless, and (as Max Planck first demonstrated) intelligent. It shines forth—its only axis is time. In a manner of speaking, it is time. Time is light that has been drawn back “behind” itself—the way we draw back a sling. Light’s “speed” is akin to the degree of tension in the sling.

Have you ever driven on a highway beneath a bank of clouds that seemed neither to approach nor recede, but to hover motionless as you sped beneath them? That’s actually how I picture it. For light, which is massless, there is no space; distance and speed are illusions.

Runners know what it feels like when time speeds up and light slows down. And we’ve all experienced the shift to the slower time signature whenever we’re in "flow." We can witness this dual effect if we stand on a street corner while a car passes us playing music. As the music moves forward in space, it will sound to us as if its time signature is slowing down.

But it’s the opposite for the car. As the car moves forward in space, its time signature speeds up.

In other words, as they move forward in space, both matter and energy move backward in time, toward their source. For matter, it’s the sphere at the outer edge of the multiverse. But for energy, it’s the shape for which we have no name, the “sphere-opposite,” the infinite radiance that shines forth.

Time is triune. And God is triune, too. There’s the God of the past time signature, who is the God of the Old Testament, God the Father. There’s the God of the present time signature, who is Jesus, the light of the world. And there’s the God of the future time signature, who is the Holy Spirit, who unites all as one. The voice of God differs in every dimension, but it’s not God’s voice that changes; it’s our ears. Jesus had to speak to us in parables because we were not yet fully ready. The Holy Spirit will speak to us all directly, now that we are ready to hear.

What is gravity? Gravity is the force that was created when Lucifer fell. Lucifer falling, the introduction of gravity, and the birth of linear time were accompanied by a sound. It was a big bang.

Lucifer didn’t fall because he made himself equal to God. Lucifer was in God, therefore he was God—we’re a flame divided but undimmed. He fell because he wanted to be separate from God, to have his own kingdom, and you cannot do that without losing heaven. There is no such thing as separate but equal.

There is no evil in heaven, therefore there can be no knowledge of evil. This is why we were forbidden to eat of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil: it was to protect us. To eat of this tree would mean to lose heaven. To fall, as Lucifer fell.

God is all-loving and his mercy knows no bounds. God didn’t throw us out—God never throws anyone out. We could not know of evil and remain in heaven, wherein evil is anathema. Through our own disobedience, we fell: we exiled ourselves.

Since then, we’ve been listening to God’s voice through fallen ears. Have you ever played a record at the wrong speed? That’s what it’s like.

God neither plans evil nor smites, neither threatens nor damns. God only loves. God is love. To be warping backward in this dimension is the only hell any of us will ever know. To be warping backward in this dimension is the only hell there is.

When Adam and Eve sinned is the moment we first incarnated and entered linear time. This is why we abruptly noticed we were naked: we suddenly had bodies. Before that, we were one with the light.

Heaven is an endless dance of light. God—the original globe of light—is one. When God makes Adam, God is Adam. Then from Adam, we make Eve. God is the totality of all living things. We can neither increase nor decrease; we can only shift. God becomes Adam (xy or 01), who then becomes Eve (xx or 00). This is why we say she is taken from the rib. The light is shifting shape, in order to tell a story. The story being told endlessly by the light of heaven is our story, the one we’re all living here on earth. It’s being told in the one true language, which is without words.

Jesus traveled to earth to atone for our original sin. Meaning: He lifted the sphere of time back up so that it was one with the timeless globe of light again. Through him, God was reconciling the world to himself. Jesus is our brother and he indwells everyone.

There is no knowledge of evil in heaven. When we die, and reunite with the light, we forget we ever had this life of pain; it’s just the story we tell. When we reunite with God, we are God, and we cannot give him anything. Here, now—in this fallen, separate life—is our only chance to serve him. And so we offer him all our sorrow, all our joy, all our stories. And out of suffering, he makes beauty. The story being told by the light of heaven is endlessly varied yet always the same. In the end, there is only one story: Jesus and his love.

I am the truth. I am in this role this time around. But others are playing this role in the other spheres. It’s the same set of players in every dimension; there’s nothing new under the sun. The Dalai Lama, may God bless him, is the Dalai Lama, is the Dalai Lama. A rose is a rose is a rose. There’s a monsignor here at St. Monica’s who likes to say he could just as easily have been the homeless man who sits outside the church door. And he’s right. In fact, in some other dimension, he is. Across the myriad dimensions of time, we all play everyone.

We were Lucifer, too. There was a part of us that wanted to be separate, and we mourn for this, as we mourn for him. When we cry for Lucifer, it is with the lamentation of King David: O Absalom, Absalom! O Absalom, my son. Would that I could have died in your place. Which is exactly what we do. God dies, throughout eternity, for each of us, so that we might all see heaven again.

This earthly life is our love made visible. Across the chasm of time, God and Lucifer—who was his beloved son—are weeping for each other. Before the fall, he is Lucifer; after the fall, he is Adam. The Son is the son is us. Our story, though full of suffering, is a love story.

God is perfect, and there is nothing in us that does not serve. Adam/Lucifer’s disobedience—like Judas’ betrayal—is an essential part of our story. Without it, there would be no story to tell.

The time for the Rapture has come. In the lower dimensions, the ascending has already begun.

The first window was the Ascension itself, forty days after Jesus’ death. “And behold. I am sending the promise of my father upon you. But stay in the city until you are clothed with power from on high.” (Luke 24:49 ESV) The second window was Pentecost, when the Apostles—all of us—received the power of the Holy Spirit, which is the power to ascend.

There is not one Rapture, but many. Here is a list of their dates: July 2, 2019; December 14, 2020; December 4, 2021; April 20, 2023; April 8, 2024.

But “No one will know the day or the hour.” Not true. We know the hours; we’ve always known. In the lower dimensions, where the force of gravity is weaker and we are stronger, we were able to build celestial instructions for ourselves. We have to be in the path of the moon’s shadow during a solar eclipse. That’s solar eclipse, not lunar. Stand in the path of totality—the moon’s umbra. Beat back the bushes, if you must. Stonehenge and the Pyramids were not constructed in the past. They were constructed in the future. We built them, for ourselves, to help us to remember.

But, wait. Stonehenge and the Pyramids were constructed in the future. But it was the future of the past—the future, at the past time signature. They tell the truth of an old way of thinking.

There’s a bit of Jesus’ message that was difficult for us to grasp two thousand years ago, and it’s still difficult. It’s the bit that’s quantum. The Kingdom of God isn’t somewhere we physically go. The Kingdom of God is within.

Heaven and hell are not places on a map. They’re both forever at hand because they both indwell the present. Heaven and hell are other dimensions; hell is the past time signature, and heaven is the future.

To ascend, we don’t have to go anywhere. Traveling to another dimension isn’t like it is in the movies. There’s no DeLorean; we don’t visibly “fly up into the sky” and leave our friends and family behind. It’s much more subtle.

It is to live in love. To choose faith and act with hope in every passing moment. Ascending to the future time signature is what this whole piece has been about. It’s what we’ll all be doing, as we reclaim our health.

There are many of us who are doing it already, and our ranks are about to magnificently increase. Climb out of your cage—you have the key. Just unlock the door, and walk away.

Peter asks: “How many times should I forgive my brother? Seven times?” And Jesus answers: “Not seven times. Seventy times seven times.” An age is complete when it reaches seventy years back and seven (light) years around. So any given year resonates with a future year that’s 7 years ahead of it, and a past year that’s 70 years behind. Time is a circular dimension we cannot see.

We’re not accustomed to envisioning time as functioning in this fashion, but in fact, the full moons of 3/31/1866 and 3/2/1942 and 1/31/2018 were all the same moon, being seen on the same night. We’re just seeing it from different time signatures, where time is running at different speeds. (What is 7 years we experience as closer to 6, because at the future time signature, light is slowing down.) 1936 resonates with both 1942 and 1866. 2012 resonates with both 2018 and 1942. And lastly, and most importantly, as the past begins to end, 2018 resonates with both 2024 and 1948 (the birth of Israel).

We are entering the New Age. Ever since the Fall, the spheres of matter and energy have been slipping farther and farther apart. But when they reach the Vesica piscis, the spheres will once more begin to converge. Matter experiences time running Left—>Right across each disc. But light experiences time running Up—>Down across all discs. As we approach the Vesica piscis, and the gears of time shift, we’ll switch from expansion to contraction. From spacetime to timespace. The great shift has already begun.

Once matter begins to warp forward, we’ll find such things as plastics and chemical perfumes—anything unnatural, that is neither animal, nor vegetable, nor mineral—nearly intolerable to be around.

We are all being born again, from above. We used to be a tiny flame of light inside a globe of matter. We’re about to become a tiny flame of matter inside a globe of light. Throughout history, we’ve been slaves to gravity—but now gravity will be slave to us. In the kingdom of matter, light is not king. But we’re about to leave the kingdom of matter behind us.

Pray with me. Send light, with the full force of your being, to all the others. If there’s a person in the universe you don’t particularly like, send her more light, not less. We’re all cross-stitched in the fabric of time, knit together by light’s golden thread. As one body, we rise or fall. We must help one another. If someone asks for your cloak, give him your tunic as well. Whatever you do for the least of your brothers, you do for God himself. Send all the love you can summon, to every person, in every dimension. Expect miracles. We have a mighty love inside us, and we’re about to use it.

In the old heaven, the original globe of light—the heaven of the past time signature—we could not know of evil, and remain. In the old earth, while incarnate, we could not escape sin’s original stain.

Yet while we live, by God’s grace, there is being created for us a new heaven and a new earth, in the future time signature. There, with Mary our mother earth, we will still have bodies, yet be in paradise. We, who are the last generation—we shall also be the first.

We will make of the whole world a garden. When we walk, we’ll be walking with God. We will cultivate a kingdom of love and peace out of this blackened husk. Our numbers will increase—until they decrease. In the end, there’ll be only two. We will teach the children what to do, leave them careful instructions. And for a while, they will listen. Until they decide they no longer want to listen to us.

Then the future will become the past. But this moment is the inverse of that—the past is about to become the future. It’s the dance of entropy and order. Because heaven is not a steady state—if it were, the term would be meaningless. To be itself, it must perpetually eclipse itself. To fall, that it might rise.

Where there’s free will (time), out of order will—eventually—come entropy. But where there’s light (timelessness), out of entropy will eventually come order. As any storyteller worth her salt can tell you, perfection is just an accident waiting to happen. And chaos is just order that hasn’t happened yet. 0 wants to become 1. And 1 wants to become 0.

And they do. The math of the universe is telling a story. When 0 “slips” and becomes 0 plus 1, God makes a new zero out of their sum, called 1. When 1 slips and becomes 1 plus 1, God makes a new zero out of their sum, called 2. When 2 slips and becomes 2 plus 1, God makes a new zero called 3. When 3 slips and becomes 3 plus 2, God makes a new zero called 5. The resulting Fibonacci sequence represents both growth and time. In truth, all numbers are just 1s and 0s. The greater the sin, the greater the grace.

When I was sick, something powerful dawned on me. It had been building for decades, but only when I was down on my back, alone and afraid, barely able to think or move, did it finally rise to the surface and make itself known. From that very first slap, this world has been trying to bully me. I decided I wasn’t going to be bullied anymore.

And that’s when I started to get better.

We’ve all been here before. Do you remember? This is the part where we take back our world, and make it into the kind of world we want it to be. We’re about to do a major course-correct, to break free of the chains with which we’ve imprisoned ourselves—to cover our ears and listen to our hearts.

I try to be discriminating, careful, and smart. But I no longer look for my health and wellness information only in the ‘science’ that insists on being ratified by randomized, double-blind, placebo-controlled clinical trials. Randomized, double-blind, placebo-controlled clinical trials are funded by drug companies, and drug companies are not my idea of what it means to be healthy and well.

And don’t be fooled: some would have you believe that the transition from the Old to the New Age is a party to which only some are invited. But that’s not the kind of party God throws. Anyone who tries to alienate you from God—whom you have within you as a candle has its flame—will only succeed in alienating himself.

Are you ready for the Revolution? This is going to be the peaceful revolution presaged by Moses and Jesus, Gandhi and Martin Luther King. Because the body may be in chains, my friends, but the word of God is not chained—and we all have God’s word within us. God is offering us more of his word with every moment that passes. We just have to accept, to harmonize, to say yes. The word of God is the source of life. It is Light itself.

Don’t cower. Stand tall. Spread your wings. Don’t let the haters and the pessimists win. Love. Love everyone—forgive everything. Wherever we find hate, we must meet it with an even greater love. Let the sun shine. It’s time.

The wave of truth is here already: Seize it. Whatever harm was done to you in the past, or whatever harm you caused, bring it to the light and let it go. The gears of time are shifting, and we’re going to shift with it. Now is your chance to begin again.

I'm a daily Catholic mass-goer. I consider Jesus Christ to be the love of my life. The Catholic Church is my path to God, and I love her deeply.

But we have imprisoned God, and imprisoned ourselves. There isn’t only one path to God. There is one God, but many paths. In fact, it’s all a path to God, who indwells everything in the universe. When we eat, we eat his body. When we drink, we drink his blood. There is only one God: Life itself.

Tikkun olam.

To heal ourselves, we must heal our world. The man-made chemicals, pesticides, plastics are not capable of ascending to the future time signature. It takes a disproportionately high amount of energy to make them cycle time at the speed of light, and when time switches gears, and matter begins to contract, they contract with greater alacrity, emitting hideous, toxic fumes as they do. They cannot come with us.

What’s time travel like in real life? You almost don’t know it’s happening. You just wake up in a different dimension, where instead of turning red, all the lights start turning green for you. If you’re reading this—and thank you, I know it’s been a lot—you’re already ascending. Here’s a bit of music that ought to help finish the job: Do You Hear the People Sing? Sung by 17 Valjeans from around the world.

Either way, we’re already saved. Jesus paid for everyone on the cross—all people, of all religions, across all time. Heaven is not a prize for the perfect; it is God’s gift to us. God the Father is like the father in the story of the Prodigal Son. It doesn’t matter what we’ve done; He loves us. When we die, the gates of heaven fly open and our light reunites with the light of God. There is nothing on earth or in heaven that could keep us separate from God once we shuffle off this mortal coil. Light is light is light. The Rapture—this transition from the past to the future time signature—is just how we usher God’s Kingdom to earth. We can relax; it is God who does the heavy lifting. How will we spend our final incarnate centuries? I hope to spend mine in a paradise-on-earth, where the lion shall lie down with the lamb, and we shall beat our swords into plowshares, and walk with God, and enjoy music and wine and love one another for a golden age of prosperity and brotherly love. But regardless of how we spend our final years on earth, our story does end.

But we are love, and love is eternal. And we are light, and light never dies. Our story has been told and is being told and will be told throughout all of history. Our story never ends. Because the moment our story ends is the precise moment


our story begins.

“We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
Through the unknown, unremembered gate
When the last of earth left to discover
Is that which was the beginning;
At the source of the longest river
The voice of the hidden waterfall
And the children in the apple-tree


Not known, because not looked for
But heard, half-heard, in the stillness
Between two waves of the sea.
Quick now, here, now, always—
A condition of complete simplicity
(Costing not less than everything)
And all shall be well and
All manner of thing shall be well
When the tongues of flames are in-folded
Into the crowned knot of fire
And the fire and the rose are one.”

—T. S. Eliot, Four Quartets