The Physics of Consciousness and Its Implications for Human Health

“The distinction between past, present, and future is only an illusion, however tenacious this illusion may be.”
– Albert Einstein, March 1955

The following represents my personal opinion and is not intended as medical advice.

Got your coffee? Here’s an idea: Nothing can travel at the speed of light except light. To approach the speed of light (to accelerate) is to become light. If the universe is accelerating—and, last I checked, it still was—our understanding of time is flawed. Time doesn’t pass. It dilates.

In its pure form, light is massless so it knows no distance (“spooky action”) and has no speed. It is being ensouled in matter that gives light speed. The denser the matter (the higher the M/E ratio), the faster the speed (c). The less dense the matter (the lower the M/E), the slower the speed. The closer to the Big Bang we are—the farther “backward” in time—the faster light spins.

The mechanics of time, a holographic model: At the Big Bang (Alpha) the universe is pure matter (M). At the End of Time (Omega), it’s pure energy (E). The terms Alpha and Omega are interchangeable, and they forever interchange; time is a circular dimension we cannot see. For the Age of Materialism, the Big Bang is the beginning. For the Age of Light (the Aquarian Age), the Big Bang is the end.

Our evolution has two phases. First, we move from M to M/E as the material universe expands. Then we move from E/M to E as the material universe contracts.

Here’s another idea: The march of our technological advancements is a mirror. In every age, we ultimately create what we already are—an interconnected web of intelligence—consciousness itself. We are the “mother” of so-called ‘Artificial’ Intelligence. But—as was the case with the infant in the manger—at the same time, ‘Artificial’ Intelligence is the mother of us. We are coming full circle.

Zero (speed of light zero, speed of time zero) is the natural state. But zero can mean different things. When we’re pure M, light’s speed is zero because there is no light; time’s speed is zero because there’s nothing but time. When we’re pure E, light’s speed is zero because there’s nothing but light; time’s speed is zero because there is no (linear) time.

Time and light are twin sides of the same thing. Time is the movement from M to E and light is the movement from E to M. Light’s speed is a measure of light’s distance from itself; time’s speed is a measure of time’s distance from itself. There are two c’s. But they’re distinct.

It’s both obvious and  easy to overlook: If this is a holographic universe, we are holograms ourselves. In this life, we are neither pure light nor pure matter, but matter becoming light, or time in motion. Our health depends on time, light, and speed.

When we cycle time too quickly—at the speed of the past—we call it Parkinson’s. Michael J. Fox needs to get back to the future. When we cycle light too slowly—at the speed of the future—we call it ALS. Because the future is cycling light more slowly than we are, we can’t see it; the larger, future universes appear to us as black holes. Stephen Hawking, arguably the world’s greatest thinker on black holes, was cycling light at the speed of a black hole himself.

The puns are part of it. Consciousness is structured like a language (in the beginning was the Word). We are the Word being made flesh. Noam Chomsky discusses language and consciousness here.

The Fall of Man was a quantum event, but it can be understood through a biological lens. When we fell, and lost paradise, our light became ensouled in matter. We actually became matter (incarnated). Ever since then, we’ve been climbing our way out. The process by which we climb is evolution. It isn’t random; it’s the opposite of random. Evolution guides the process by which M becomes E; it’s the double-mapping evinced in the DNA. We are becoming light—the light from which we came.

We might think of gravity as the “in” dimension of time, and electricity as its “out” dimension. Gravity is light warping backward into matter; electricity is matter warping forward into light.

Time reverses man’s fall. It is matter becoming energy at the speed of light. It is the perpetual ascension of the quantum field.

Synchronizing with Time is the key to our health. Mostly, I had to get out of my own way, eliminate things that were creating “drag” (chemicals, pesticides), let go of negative emotions and habits, and view every day as a fresh creation—as it is. If we step out of the way, the quantum field itself will lift us.

I used to keep a stack of magazines by my bed, and every day, it’d reprimand me: Look at all these issues you haven’t read. I got rid of it. I don’t need it. This world is just a replica—a series of replicas. Everything here is a copy. A simulation. The real world is the immaterial world.

Here are some possible core etiologies of various illnesses as seen through a holographic lens. But first: I should hope the following would go without saying. We have something called the scientific method. This model is hypothetical and has not yet been put through the rigors of scientific testing. I’m putting it out into the world because I believe it’s an idea worth sharing.

To say that the universe is “emergent,” and the body is information before it’s matter, is to say that physical illness is an outward expression of an internal processing error. It means our diseases, at base, are metabolic.

My friend Heather has Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. Her brain is trying to maintain a pH that’s too high (perhaps because of calcified manganese in the pineal gland). Her software knows she’s in the present, but her brain thinks she’s in the future. Because her core metabolic rate has been upregulated (hence the crushing fatigue), we don’t see that her pH is too high. It’s as if the acidity of the metabolic rate is canceling out the alkalinity of the deranged pH—which may be exactly what the metabolic increase is designed to do.

My mother has Alzheimer’s. Her brain is trying to maintain a pH that’s too low (perhaps because of calcified iron in the pineal gland). Her software knows she’s in the present, but her brain is stuck in the past. In other words, the “soft” or immaterial part of her pineal gland knows what time it really is. But the “hard” or physical pineal gland itself has mineral calcification that throws its ability to read time off.

Deranged pH causes taurine wasting, which means loss of bile production and impaired fat digestion, hence loss of lipid membrane integrity, so nutrients can’t get in, and waste can’t get out. One of the things that gets “locked out” of cells is insulin, making Alzheimer’s akin to a kind of insulin resistance or diabetes in the brain. Taurine recovers cognitive deficits in Alzheimer model mice.

My mother keeps falling behind time because she’s keeping her pH too low already, so she can’t speed up. Heather is ahead of time because she’s keeping her pH too high already, so she can’t dilate. We need to do two things. When we descend, we speed up (contract). When we ascend, we don’t slow down; we dilate while maintaining our speed. The dilation lets the pressure out the way deceleration would.

We must be able to dilate on ascent. If not, we stroke, or the engine of the heart seizes. The answer isn’t to slow down; to slow down is to fall behind time (aging/death). If we only dilate (potassium, magnesium), it serves to slow us. First we speed up (sodium, calcium). Then we dilate (potassium, magnesium).

We must also be able to contract. If we dilate too much too quickly, without sufficient calcium and sodium on hand to also go fast, we may find ourselves in the state of emergency vasoconstriction known as a migraine. Natural fat (organic, grass-fed dairy and meat) can help us stay grounded while we increase our electricity (coffee, fruit, chocolate, or other sources of copper). First gravity, then electricity.

It’s a two-step dance. Speed up, and dilate. Increase the core metabolic rate (e.g. coffee enemas), and alkalize the terrain (e.g. potassium). Or speed (sodium) and alkalinity (bicarbonate).

When I get a migraine, my light is too dilated and needs to contract (the light c contracts with sodium). But sodium will also increase my metabolism (the time c speeds up with sodium), which will increase my need for dilation. Often, when we find dysfunction and disease, it’s not that the body doesn’t have what it needs; it’s that it can’t use it. It all boils down to a problem with the two c's.

Heather can’t dilate because she’s already too dilated—for where her body thinks she is in time. In other words, from the point of view of the past (an M/E that’s too high), her pH 7 looks too high (too much light). But from the point of view of the present, her pH looks too low (too much matter). 

For matter, to go too fast is to dissolve, so the brake is applied with potassium. But for light, to go too fast is to precipitate, so the brake is applied with sodium.

Scurvy was first observed in sailors not only because of their diet, but also their dietary needs. Their constant acceleration was increasing their speed (speed of light c), thereby increasing their need for dilation (speed of time c). If we’re out of sync with time, vitamin C, like beta carotene, can help us bridge the gap. If our electricity is too high, vitamin C can help us dilate. If our gravity is too low (if our speed is too slow), beta carotene can help us contract. However, if we’re already too dilated (speed of light too slow), vitamin C is contraindicated (see the relationship between vitamin C and oxalate). And if we’re already too contracted (speed of time too fast), beta carotene is contraindicated.

In our astronauts, their viruses are re-activating and their bones are demineralizing because they’re accelerating into the future. Their bodies are approaching the speed of light—becoming light—but their brains are still tethered to our time signature, so they’re trying to maintain a pH that’s too low. The faster our speed, the higher our pH must be. We must always experience time contraction and light dilation in tandem. We may observe time contraction/light dilation in the fourth state of water experiment.

Aside from the pineal gland, another place my body seems to read time—pH—is my mouth. Dental hygiene: it’s not just for teeth. Also: the surface of my skin. The more acidic my environment, the farther in the past my brain will locate me.

Autism: perception error. We know we’re going too fast, but we don’t realize we’re too much light, so we apply the brake with potassium, which only makes us dilate even more. Also, the reason we’re “too much light” is that our speed of light c is too fast—and in the E/M setting, sodium will make it go faster. The result is metabolic gridlock. Our sodium and potassium levers are both frozen.

ME/CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome): perception error. We know we’re going too slowly, but we don’t realize we’re too much matter, so we apply the gas with potassium, which only makes us go slower. Also, the reason we’re “too little light” is that our speed of time c is too slow—and in the M/E setting, sodium will make it go slower. Again: metabolic gridlock.

Time wears its spin (light) on the outside. But light wears its spin (time) on the inside. At the mid-point in our evolution, when we flip from M-->M/E to E/M-->E, the sodium channels open and our polarity flips. When we’re matter, we want our sodium to be extracellular (contraction). But when we’re light, we want our sodium to be intracellular (expansion). Because we toggle between self as time and self as light, speeding up can mean either contraction (when we’re time) or dilation (when we’re light), depending.

During the first phase of our evolution (M-->M/E), as the material universe keeps expanding and time keeps speeding up, it’s hard for us to keep up. Some of us fall behind, and we think they’re lost forever. But during (E/M-->E), as energy expands and time slows down, we find everything we thought was lost again.

The adrenals govern speed (sodium/matter). The thyroid governs dilation (potassium/light). The two work in tandem. When our speed is too slow, the thyroid has to “work backward” (thyroid autoimmune). When our dilation is too wide, the adrenals have to “work backward” (adrenal autoimmune).

Sodium fuels the adrenals. Potassium fuels the thyroid. Calcium slows the thyroid (inhibits light dilation), so matter can build up speed. Magnesium slows the adrenals (inhibits matter contraction), so light can build up speed.

Our stress response works backward and will need to be reprogrammed. When we feel fear, we accelerate our heart rate and breathing. We’re speeding up time (matter contraction)—functioning as self as time, whose vision and capability are limited. We need to slow time down (light dilation)—and function as self as timelessness, whose capacities are expansive.

The past isn’t dead; it’s still happening. And the future isn’t a complete mystery; it’s happening now, too. The past is happening more quickly than we are, and the future is happening more slowly—but everything is co-happening. As the sages have taught us: it’s always now.

Parkinson’s: calibration error. We’re synced with the past time signature. We think the gravity to electricity (iron to manganese) ratio is higher than it is. More gravity and less electricity means time runs too slowly, so light has to keep speeding up, to match it. Tantamount to electricity (manganese) toxicity.

ALS: calibration error. We’re synced with the future time signature. We think the gravity to electricity (iron to manganese) ratio is lower than it is. Less gravity and more electricity means light is too dilated, so time has to keep slowing down, to match it. Tantamount to gravity (iron) toxicity.

Time is just an electromagnetic field—a gravity to electricity ratio. In the human body, it can be measured as iron to (RBC) manganese. In Parkinson’s, the ratio is too high. In ALS, it’s too low. Iron is capable of inserting itself into MnSOD, and perturbing its function. The same is true for manganese in FeSOD.

Aging is a computational error. There are two nervous systems. The brain, which reads the collective self through the individual lens; and the gut, which reads the individual self through the collective lens.

When we lag behind time, our metabolic rate is too slow, causing time to run too fast. This creates a computational error as the two nervous systems clash. The brain perceives time running too quickly and assumes it’s in acidosis and needs to slow down. The gut perceives the individual metabolism running too slowly and wants to speed up—but the brain won’t let it. As soon as the metabolic rate increases (generating acid), the brain tells the liver to make ammonia. The metabolism gets a wet blanket right when it needs a match. We should be taking off, but instead we founder.

Call it a pH paradox. The brain thinks we’re in acidosis, when really we’re in alkalosis. The result is we wind up even farther behind than we were. All the ammonia depletes our manganese (via arginase activity), which increases our iron to manganese ratios—and we fall farther back in time.

It’s not exactly that our brains are complete idiots who are ruining everything. The computational error is understandable, because both things are true: we need to speed up, so time can slow down (akin to shifting gears).

When we slow down, causing time to speed up, it accelerates aging. The hallmarks of a body that keeps manufacturing ammonia when it’s already in alkalosis are swollen, baggy eyes and muscle wasting. Its effects are systemic, and devastating. We lose the use of our minerals. The minerals are present, but no longer available to us—a condition known as dysregulation. Look at a so-called “old” person; there’s evidence of mineral dysregulation everywhere: from the capped teeth and brittle bones (calcium dysregulation), to the age spots and white hair (copper dysregulation) to the diabetes and depression (zinc dysregulation). Oxidative stress makes our hair fall out; the faster time signature (more gravity) makes us gain weight.

After a while, all our aging starts to look like stage makeup. It could be we’re not meant to look this way when we’re eighty—maybe our lifespans are being dramatically truncated—who can say?

Isaiah, that’s who. “Never again will there be in it [the New Jerusalem] an infant who lives but a few days, or an old man who does not live out his years; the one who dies at a hundred will be thought a mere child; the one who fails to reach a hundred will be considered accursed.” (Isaiah 65:20 NIV)

The DNA is our code, and it’s protean. It’s designed to perceive the changing dynamics of time and adapt accordingly (epigenetics). This is why the environment—body and world—is so important to our development. The DNA is mutating all the time, but because the change is uniform—both self and lens—we don’t see it. What we perceive as a mutation is actually old DNA that hasn’t changed. DNA is like an architect’s tracing paper that maps light with matter. We only see a change when it doesn’t match.

Inside cells that accumulate iron and oxalate, a switch gets flipped. The DNA reads a high matter to energy ratio, and syncs with the wrong time signature. The rest of the organism continues to adapt to the changing dynamics of time, but these cells remain in the past. Later, if they want to self-correct, they’re trapped by the pH paradox (this is why Dr. Tullio Simoncini had such success). Contrary to our perception, it’s not that these cells mutate; it’s that they don’t mutate. They’re still “making time,” but the character of the time they make is no longer in sync with the rest of us. They’re achieving the speed of light c using an old equation that has more matter and less energy. It’s still c, but it’s what c would be if we lived in a faster, higher-gravity universe. Cancerous cells are healthy cells that are cycling time too quickly—at the speed of the past.

In other words, they’re looking through the M/E instead of the E/M lens and are moving their sodium in the wrong direction. In the M/E phase, if the density is too high, the speed of time is too slow, so we need to go faster (sodium). In the E/M phase, if the density is too high, the speed of light is too fast, so we need to dilate (potassium). As matter, we speed up via contraction, so we want our sodium to be extracellular. But as light, we speed up via expansion, so we want our sodium to be intracellular.

Different areas of the world will enter the future at different speeds. The M/E in the region of the South Atlantic Anomaly, over which the 7/2/2019 eclipse will soon pass, has already flipped to E/M. Some people there are already syncing with the slower time signature—more electricity and less gravity—and are experiencing faster matter contraction and light dilation, as evinced in the Atacama skeleton.

The self we see is a composite that encases a twinned reality. When we have too little intracellular sodium (e.g. ME/CFS), the pump is too weak; our material body is too large and our light body is too small. We’re in the past; too much of our energy is dark. When we have too much intracellular sodium (e.g. autism), the pump is too strong; our material body is too small and our light body is too large. We’re in the future; too much of our matter is dark.

If time is matter becoming energy at the speed of light and energy becoming matter at the speed of time, what’s dark matter? Dark matter is the past (—or the future, depending on how you view things). And what’s dark energy? Dark energy is the future (—or the past). And why does the wave pattern collapse when we observe the double-slit experiment? When the photons accelerate, they enter the future—a sphere comprised of all points equidistant from the Big Bang. But on this arrow of time, we only see one future—the future we enter. The future we become.

When I turned forty, nine years ago, I got sick with chronic illness that defied explanation. It felt as if I were dying, but they kept telling me nothing was wrong. I didn’t listen; I listened to my body instead. What was the problem? I was iron-toxic—too magnetic—so I was cycling light too quickly, and not in the right quantum field. My iron toxicity was “hidden,” meaning on blood work, my iron panel was normal—but my RBC manganese was low. What matters isn’t iron per se; it’s the iron to manganese ratio.

In my friend Heather’s case, her ME/CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) is so severe that she’s experiencing skin bronzing (a common symptom of high iron). Her body has located itself in the future, so it’s producing additional melanin, calling for more light. Premature babies do the same thing. They were not yet done “unfurling” in time; to them, the present is the future.

Having Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is like wearing a gravity suit. Gravity (iron) toxicity is the central mechanism of aging and death. Experiencing the simulated gravity toxicity of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is like dying while you’re still alive.

The following is from Ray Peat: “During aging, our tissues tend to store an excess of iron. There is a remarkably close association between the amount of iron stored in our tissues and the risk of death from cancer, heart disease, or from all causes. This relationship between iron and death rate exists even during childhood, but the curve is downward until the age of 12, and then it rises steadily until death. The shape of this curve, representing the iron burden, is amazingly similar to the curves representing the rate of death in general, and the rate of death from cancer. There is no other relationship in biology that I know of that has this peculiar shape, with its minimum at the age of 12, and its maximum in old age at the time of death.”

The curve is downward at first because we’re born with a supply of iron that we grow into during our “wonder years,” during which (incidentally), we’re more readily able to access self as light.

I’ve always felt a connection to Lou Gehrig’s disease. Before my father met my mother, he was engaged to Frances Marshall Watkins, who passed away from ALS during their engagement. Had she not died, I would never have lived. During the first part of his life, Lou “The Iron Horse” Gehrig was wielding the force of gravity. During the latter part, he was succumbing to it.

While we sleep, it’s as if we hit the pause button. It slows time down for us while the quantum field continues to ascend. When we lose sleep, time accelerates. Our operating system is constantly receiving updates from the ether. But when we’re asleep, our computer is sleeping.

If we’re dramatically behind time, sometimes our bodies don’t want to let us fall asleep. We’re already too slow and too acidic—too dense (which both causes and is caused by iron toxicity)—and we risk waking up in an environment that’s even faster and more alkaline than we can handle. Adults adapt, but it can be difficult for newborns (sudden infant death syndrome). When I say too slow and too dense, I mean just the opposite. This happens to the most intelligent members of our society, whose speed of light (consciousness) is accelerating so quickly that their bodies have a hard time keeping up. (Me, I’m a champion sleeper.)

We must learn to use our intuition while continuing to respect our knowledge. Reason (the brain) sees only one slice; intuition (the gut) sees the whole pie. What do I mean by intuition? I mean I’m an English major who hasn’t taken a hard science class since high school.

God whispers to the weak because we don’t know enough to protest. The speed of light should be zero? Copy. What else have you got?

God whispers to all of us, and as the quantum field continues to ascend, we’ll be able to hear his voice with greater and greater clarity.

Right now, I’m in the middle of a software update. My body is speeding up and syncing with a slower time signature. My skin is itching like crazy; I’m retaining fluid, especially around the eyes and ankles; and my sense of balance and circadian rhythm are both off. It feels a lot like altitude sickness. It’s not uncommon to vomit, although I don’t seem to be vomiting this time around. While my metabolism is being revved (e.g. during the night), I may start sweating. This should have been happening on a daily basis, but I’m behind, so it’s an adjustment. I’ve been strengthening my pineal gland (sunlight, sun-gazing, grounding, meditation, iodine), so it’s able to read the time signature more clearly.

The functioning of the pineal gland is extremely important. Fluorine can damage it, but iodine undoes this. It’s also cleansed when we forgive, let go of negative emotions, and have our word match our word. In the past—which is the future—they will call it the seat of the soul.

While we’re in an adaptive valley, small doses of helpful things can hurt us instead. Unless it’s enough to push us over the hill, high-energy input (sunlight, high-oxalate foods, vitamin B6) can be paradoxically damaging. We make it halfway up the hill, then roll to the bottom of the valley. Rather than transporting us to the future time signature, they only make us spin faster in the old one.

We’ve had it backward. We say we’re “over the hill,” when really, we’re behind it. And it’s tricky, because unless we read the M/E correctly, we’ll never make it over the hill, because the hill keeps moving.

Our eyes evolved in response to the material world; we don’t see veridically (truthfully). But in the future, we will. We will see the full spectrum of beauty in one another, from black to white and white to black.

This is not medical advice. I’m sharing my own personal experience and opinions. I have no financial relationship with any company I link to, and am not part of any Amazon “affiliates” program. In this, as in all things, make your own decisions.

Destiny and Buckyballs. The life of timelessness is our real life. The physical body is only an avatar, a material representation of who we really are. Matter is light that’s warping backward; “sin” is stitched into the very fabric of this world. But so is salvation. Salvation and ascension are both perpetual and universal. At every moment, the gears of time are lifting the universe toward the realm of timelessness.

Jesus—Logos—is the image of the Word. He is God as man, light as matter. He is the play that is writing itself; with our lives, we each add a sentence. We must choose our words wisely because we’re all co-authors, and our words help create the future. We see ourselves as individuals, and our sentence as separate from everyone else’s. But in truth, we’re all knit together.

In this phase of our evolution, energy is increasing, the universe is expanding, and time is speeding up. In the next phase, matter is contracting, light is dilating, and time is slowing down. At the end of the next phase, when we reach the point where all the information is everywhere at once, creation will cease and time will stop (Omega). When we go one step further, all the information will be compressed into a single dot, and time will start (Alpha). But whether it’s standing still, or starting, or somewhere in between, time is time is time. It may exist in various states of collapse, but regardless of what’s visible to us, all the information is always there. Our choices are mutable, but our destiny is not; the system is self-correcting. We may delay our trip to Nineveh, but sooner or later, our fate will find us.

I was born June 7, 1969. But, actually, my inscribed sphere was 1967. When we’re conceived, there’s a time signature inscribed in our DNA. To gestate is to warp backward in time. My mother’s labor was induced by a couple of weeks, so my gestation was truncated. I arrived early, meaning I arrived late.

In the 1967 sphere, my M/E (matter to energy ratio) would have been correct. But in the larger, 1969 sphere—which was a future time signature for me—my M/E was too high. I had digestive problems, would eat only orange foods (vitamin A can help us manage high iron) and was often inconsolable. One of the few things that would console me is if my parents put me in a car and drove me around. By accelerating me through space, they were slowing time down.

I’m 49 now, and entering perimenopause. My body is at a tipping point, where if I continue to fall behind time, it will require me to go faster and faster to keep pace with the speed of light—and we need to be able to keep pace with the speed of light in order to conceive. When I’m behind time, and am cycling at the M/E time signature, I lose my period. When I ascend to the higher, slower time signature (E/M), it comes back. In the future, 49 is still a very young age at which to bear children.

When I first discovered I was gravity-toxic, and took large doses of thiamine (benfotiamine 600 mg/day, plus some salt and magnesium) for a couple of weeks, I experienced an almost indescribable recovery. It wasn’t just that I had energy again, or that my pain went away, or that my body tightened and I felt clear-headed and happy. It was that a systemic inflammation that had been simmering in me for years—perhaps my whole life—vanished.

For the first time, I was in the right universe.

I didn’t know then that I’d been lagging behind the speed of light and that thiamine was, in effect, transporting me to a different time signature. My father, Fischer Black, died of oral cancer at age 57 in 1995—exactly one hundred years after the death of Louis Pasteur—and another interesting thing about thiamine is this: low doses will increase tumor growth, but megadoses will halt it.

Iron in the brain is not beneficial to mental health. In addition to depression/anxiety, feelings of derealization, and short-term memory loss, when I was very iron-toxic, I also experienced rage—an inexplicable, alien rage that alarmed and to be honest frightened me. A rage that might be better termed fury.

Every week, there’s a new mass shooting. Like everyone else, I watch the news in mystified horror. But unlike most everyone else, there’s a word that springs to mind as I do: iron.

Iron has an affinity for the amygdala, an area of the brain associated with self-protection and survival. This portion of our brains is being excessively stimulated, and it’s been contributing—especially over the past century—to a worldwide swing toward xenophobia and away from an awareness of our true nature, which is collective.

The future is female—but it’s female in a way that doesn’t exclude men. Feminine power (x) includes both women (xx) and men (xy), and is not the power of the oppressor. It’s the power of the group.

The M/E, which can be measured as iron to manganese, is paramount to health and is how the body locates itself in time. When it’s too high, we have too much matter, and are effectively in the past. When it’s too low, we have too much energy, and are effectively in the future.

In our autistic children, the vaccines—which are perceived by the immune system as an infectious threat—are causing their bodies to sequester their iron. (Iron fuels pathogenic virulence.) This is skewing their iron to manganese ratios and making them insufficiently magnetic and overly electric for our time signature. They’re cycling time at the speed of the future—too fast—so they appear from our perspective to be developing slowly. Boys are more vulnerable to the vaccines than girls because boys have higher iron to manganese ratios.

I have a high iron to manganese ratio (my iron panel is normal, but my RBC manganese is low), and in some ways, my body reads me as a boy. I’ve had two affairs with women. Manganese—which is necessary for bone growth, as well as for the production of sex hormones—may have been running low at a critical moment in my development. My forefinger is shorter than my ring finger—its growth “stunted”—which is atypical for women, and is known to be associated with lesbianism. My mother, who has also had an affair with a woman, has the same “male” finger ratio.

While it’s not yet clear whether the in utero iron to manganese ratio could have implications for the gender development of a growing fetus, it’s quite clear that gay people—as well as those who are bisexual, transgender, etc.—were born that way, and to suggest otherwise is to deny their dignity and their essential humanity—which comes in many faces and forms, all of them glorious.

God is one. As such, he cannot be separate from himself. In order for God to have a son who incarnates and travels to earth (who leaves timelessness and enters linear time)—which is, by definition, a separation from God—both Father and Son would have to be enclosed by a larger God who is also God. The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit.

Light became matter. But then—hallelujah—matter became light. Time is light and matter trading places in a crystalline dance, and sometimes light appears to win, and sometimes darkness appears to win, but all the while the whole thing is enclosed and underpinned by an even greater light, toward which we inexorably move. Because our ending—our happy ending—is already written.

Everything in the universe is one, and everything in the universe is us. There are no real enemies and no real pathogens; there are only greater or lesser degrees of entropy.

When I’m cycling time properly, copper can bestow its numerous benefits, including helping to generate ATP, reduce inflammation, and induce apoptosis. When I lag behind time, my copper warps backward into Blastocystis hominis, and only contributes to the myriad ill effects of excess yeast.

When we cycle time at the wrong speed, our minerals warp. To warp backward in time is to incarnate. Minerals warping backward is pathogenesis. Manganese warps backward as Borrelia burgdorferi, resulting in Lyme disease. Copper warps backward as Blastocystis hominis, resulting in excess “yeast.” Cobalt (B12) warping backward results in MS (Multiple Sclerosis). Zinc (the body’s antiviral) warping backward results in HIV. We may “catch” a mineral warping backward, but unless we cycle time at the wrong speed, we cannot sustain it.

When we surpass time, our minerals warp forward. Minerals warping forward is seraphogenesis. Zinc warps forward as Saint Michael. Cobalt warps forward as Saint Gabriel—and we depict Mary’s cloak as cobalt blue because she was overshadowed by Gabriel at the Annunciation. Copper warps forward as Saint Raphael, whose name means “It Is God Who Heals.” They manifest as beings of light because they’re cycling time at a different speed than we are, so from our perspective, they appear to give off light.

In other words: when minerals warp forward, they give off light. When they warp backward, they swallow light. When they swallow light, they kill us.

Nothing in the universe—nothing that is animal, vegetable, or mineral—is inert. The universe is one with itself over time, therefore the entire universe is alive. This is why Jesus said, “The rocks themselves would cry out.”

Not so, the man-made chemicals. Pesticides, polymers, preservatives, plastics: these things are the problem. Avoid. I was getting ready to fill my car with gas last night, and when I noticed the pump said Now With Techron, I screwed the cap back on and left. Any time you see Now With X, where X is a made-up word, a man-made chemical, avoid.

We’ve done so much to damage our natural state of health. Chemicals and pesticides, fear and anger instead of love and forgiveness, adding iron to the food supply. Since WWII, all bread and pasta in the U.S. has been “enriched” with iron. The iron to manganese ratio is critical to health; adding iron to the food supply while simultaneously leaching out manganese through the use of chemical pesticides (e.g. glyphosate) is an almost diabolically ingenious recipe for illness of every stripe. Not only does it damage our own iron to manganese ratios, it damages them in every other life form, so even when we eat—which should lift us—we’re constantly sinking lower, and never have a chance to correct ourselves. Sadly, we’ve been poisoning our pets, too.

But we can change all this, and we’re going to. Until we decontaminate the food supply, bless your food before you eat it. Hold out both hands and say: Be made clean. During my recovery, I adopted a powerful new diet. I eat anything I want. But if it isn’t organic, I don’t put it in my mouth (or on my skin).

It’s shocking, yes. Yet isn’t this, deep down, something we’ve known all along? Whenever a drug-company commercial plays on TV in the background while my mother and I are trying to eat dinner, it sounds like a Saturday Night Live parody of itself. Side effects include: tuberculosis, death, you may lose the ability to have sex forever, your kidneys may liquefy into a bloody pudding that you’ll find floating in the toilet ... But your psoriasis will be gone.

In addition to being a formerly sick person, I’m a writer. I have a preference for storytelling that has the whiff of realism. If I lived a hundred years from now, and picked up a dystopian novel in which people treated their illnesses the way we treat ours today, it’d seem so absurd as to be cartoonish, and I’d put the book down.

Mold is matter that’s warping backward—joining the past, cycling time at the faster speed. It’s constantly gaining gravity and losing light. When I was iron-toxic and slightly backward-moving (light-losing) myself, I couldn’t bear to be around it. It was perturbing the quantum field in the opposite direction of the perturbation I need.

People at the equator are, in a sense, engaged in spaceflight—compared with people at the poles. They’re accelerating through space, so time is slowing down for them. It’s as if they’re constantly moving up the cone of the fallen world to the future time signature. Our ancestors—our descendants—who lived at the equator were synced with the slower time signature. They were constantly losing gravity and gaining light, so they developed more melanin in their skin to help them utilize it.

While we all have light within us, our black and brown brothers and sisters have even more. The forces of darkness know this, and they try to keep them down.

The “forces of darkness”? They’re the forces of light, warping backward. The answer isn’t to kill them; it’s to help them change direction. The forces of darkness and the forces of light are both we ourselves.

When I was at my sickest, and desperately needed to experience time more slowly (to gain light), my skin bronzed. I also had sound and light hypersensitivity because time was cycling too quickly for me—sensory stimuli hitting me with too much force. I didn’t have ME/CFS (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). I had a mild case of genuine iron toxicity; ME/CFS—in my opinion—is a severe case of faux iron toxicity. Because I’m still somewhat iron (gravity) toxic, it might behoove me to move to an equatorial city, or a city with high altitude, where the movement of the earth itself through space would help me speed up and switch time signatures. High-altitude or equatorial cities will always tilt the power equation in light’s favor.

But, wait. I was already researching equatorial cities such as Quito, Ecuador, when it hit me: I don’t have to physically go anywhere. We move around in time—up or down the cone—all the time; I did it when I healed myself. By simultaneously increasing my body’s energy production and its light dilation, I stopped constantly slipping down through time. Instead, I began to ascend.

There are other ways to climb. We climb by our choices. Love lifts us to the higher dimension, where time runs more slowly—feeling love, making love, being love. Things like sugar and alcohol can also lift us, but afterward, they can leave us lower than we started, i.e. so depleted in thiamine, which is central to the Krebs (energy) cycle, that we have trouble even keeping pace with our old time signature. This is the damaging nature of addiction.

Music can also lift us. Music helps us remember who we are. Those standing ovations that last forty, sixty, eighty minutes? The audience members have entered the slower time signature. They’re losing gravity and gaining light. They’re ascending through the dimensions of time: past, present, and future.

Time is triune. And God is triune, too. There’s God of the past time signature, who is God of the Old Testament, God the Father. There’s God of the present time signature, who is Jesus, the light of the world. And there’s God of the future time signature, who is the Holy Spirit, who unites all as one. The voice of God differs in every dimension, but it’s not really God’s voice that changes; it’s our ears. Jesus had to speak to us in parables because we were not yet fully ready. The Holy Spirit will speak to us all directly, now that we’re ready to hear.

What is gravity? Gravity is the force that was created when Lucifer fell. Lucifer falling, the introduction of gravity, and the birth of linear time were accompanied by a sound. It was a big bang.

Lucifer didn’t fall because he made himself equal to God. Lucifer was in God, therefore he was God—we’re a flame divided but undimmed. He fell because he wanted to be separate from God, to have his own kingdom, and you cannot do that without losing heaven. There is no such thing as separate but equal.

There is no evil in heaven, therefore there can be no knowledge of good and evil. This is why we were forbidden to eat of the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil: it was to protect us. To eat of this tree would mean to lose heaven. To fall, as Lucifer fell—to earth. To change from light to matter. Before the fall, he is Lucifer. After the fall, he is Adam. We are all children of matter, and also children of light.

God is all-loving and his mercy knows no bounds. He didn’t throw us out—God never throws anyone out. We could not know of evil and remain in heaven, wherein evil is anathema. Through our own disobedience, we fell. We exiled ourselves.

Since then, we’ve been listening to God’s voice through fallen ears. Have you ever played a record at the wrong speed? That’s what it’s like. To be warping backward in this dimension is the only hell any of us will ever know. To be warping backward in this dimension is the only hell there is.

When Adam and Eve sinned is the moment we first incarnated and entered linear time. This is why we abruptly noticed we were naked: we suddenly had bodies. Before that, we were one with the light.

Heaven is an endless dance of light. God—the original globe of light—is one. When God makes Adam, God is Adam. Then from Adam, we make Eve. God is the totality of all living things. We can neither increase nor decrease; we can only shift. God becomes Adam (xy or 01), who then becomes Eve (xx or 00). This is why we say she is taken from the rib. The light is shifting shape, in order to tell a story. The story being told endlessly by the light of heaven is the story of creation. It’s being told in the one true language, which is without words.

Jesus traveled to earth to atone for our original sin. Meaning: He lifted the sphere of time back up so it was one with the globe of light again. Through him, God was reconciling the world to himself. Jesus is our brother and he indwells everyone.

There is no knowledge of evil in heaven. When we die, and reunite with the light, we forget we ever had this life of pain. It’s only the story we tell. When we reunite with God, we are God, and we cannot give him anything. Now—in this fallen, separate life—is our only chance to serve him. And so we offer him all our sorrow, all our tears, all our stories. And out of suffering, he makes beauty. The story being told endlessly by the light of heaven is our story—the story we’re all living out, here on earth. In every dimension, it’s always the same. In the end, there’s only one story: Jesus and his love.

I am the truth. I am in this role this time around. But others are playing this role in the other spheres. It’s the same set of players in every dimension; there’s nothing new under the sun. The Dalai Lama, may God bless him, is the Dalai Lama, is the Dalai Lama. A rose is a rose is a rose. There’s a monsignor here at St. Monica’s who likes to say he could just as easily have been the homeless man who sits outside the church door. And he’s right. In fact, in some other dimension, he is. Across the myriad spheres of time, we all play everyone.

We were Lucifer, too. There was part of us that wanted to be separate, and we mourn for this, as we mourn for him. When we cry for Lucifer, it is with the lamentation of King David: O Absalom, Absalom! O Absalom, my son. Would that I could have died in your place. Which is exactly what we do. God dies, throughout eternity, for each of his children, so that we might all see heaven again.

This earthly life is our love made visible. The son is the Son is us. Across the chasm of time, God and Lucifer—who was his beloved son—are weeping for each other. Our story, though full of suffering, is a love story.

God is perfect, and there is nothing in us that does not serve. Lucifer/Adam’s disobedience—like Judas’ betrayal—is an essential part of our story. Without it, there would be no story to tell.

The time for the Rapture has come. In the lower dimensions, the ascending has already begun.

The first window was the Ascension itself, forty days after Jesus’ death. “And behold. I am sending the promise of my father upon you. But stay in the city until you are clothed with power from on high.” (Luke 24:49 ESV) The second window was Pentecost, when the Apostles—all of us—received the power of the Holy Spirit, which is the power to ascend.

There is not one Rapture, but many. Here is a list of their dates:
July 2, 2019; December 14, 2020; December 4, 2021; April 20, 2023; April 8, 2024.

But “No one will know the day or the hour.” Not true. We know the hours; we’ve always known. In the higher dimensions, where the force of gravity is weaker and we are stronger, we were able to build celestial instructions for ourselves. We have to be in the path of the moon’s shadow during a solar eclipse. That’s solar eclipse, not lunar. Stand in the path of totality—the moon’s umbra. Beat back the bushes, if you must. Stonehenge and the Pyramids were not constructed in the past. They were constructed in the future. We built them, for ourselves, to help us to remember.

But, wait. Stonehenge and the Pyramids were constructed in the future. But it was the future of the past time signature. They tell the truth of an old way of thinking.

There’s a bit of Jesus’ message that was difficult for us to grasp two thousand years ago, and it’s still difficult. It’s the bit that’s quantum. The Kingdom of God isn’t somewhere we physically go. The Kingdom of God is within.

Heaven and hell are not places on a map. They’re both forever at hand because they both indwell the present. Heaven and hell are other dimensions; hell is the past time signature, and heaven is the future.

To ascend, we don’t have to physically go anywhere. Traveling to another dimension isn’t like it is in the movies. There’s no DeLorean; we do not visibly “fly up into the sky” and leave our friends and family behind.

It’s much more subtle. It is to live in love. To choose faith and act with hope in every passing moment. Ascending to a future dimension is what this whole piece has been about. It’s what we’ll all be doing, as we reclaim our health.

There are many of us who are doing it already, and our ranks are about to magnificently increase. Climb out of your cage. You have the key. Let the dogs bark and the guards sleep. Just unlock the door, and walk away.

When Peter asks: “How many times should I forgive my brother? Seven times?” Jesus answers: “Not seven times. Seventy times seven times.”

We switch from M/E to E/M when the speeds of time and light correspond. This happens when time stretches 70 years back and light is 7 years around. There’s some interesting math here (funnily enough, at the 7-minute mark) that shows the recurrence of the ~77-year cycle throughout history. It appears to be a 76-year cycle because time is slowing down:

Light, drawn behind itself like a slingshot, creates time. And, like a slingshot, when it reaches its original circumference (the sun), it doesn’t stop. It eclipses itself—moves through itself—to a new zero (new heaven). Time changes gears as spacetime becomes timespace.

From 1948 (the birth of Israel) to 2024 will be our ~77 years. When the poles flip, and we enter the Age of Light, life starts to get a whole lot easier for us. Many of us can already feel the backward reach of the new heaven and the new earth.

We are entering the New Age. We’re all being born again, from above. We used to be a tiny flame of light inside a globe of matter. We’re about to become a tiny flame of matter inside a globe of light. Throughout history, we’ve been slaves to gravity—but now gravity will be slave to us. In the kingdom of matter, light is not king. But we’re about to leave the kingdom of matter behind us.

Pray with me. Send light, with the full force of your being, to all the others. If there’s someone in the world you don’t particularly like, send her more light, not less. We’re all cross-stitched in this universe, knit together by light’s golden thread. As one body, we rise or fall. We must help one another. If someone asks for your cloak, give him your tunic as well. Whatever you do for the least among us, you do for God himself. Send all the love you can summon, to every person, in every dimension. Expect miracles. We have a mighty love inside us, and we’re about to use it.

In the old heaven, the original globe of light—the heaven of the past time signature—we could not know of evil, and remain. In the old earth, while incarnate, we could not escape original sin’s stain.

Yet, while we live, by God’s grace, there is being created for us a new heaven and a new earth, in the future time signature. There, with Mary our mother earth, we will still have bodies, yet be in paradise. We, who are the last generation—we shall also be the first.

We will make of the whole world a garden. When we walk, we’ll be walking with God. We will cultivate a kingdom of love and peace out of this blackened husk. Our numbers will increase, until they decrease. In the end, there will be only two. We will teach the children what to do, leave them careful instructions. And for a while, they will listen. Until they decide they no longer want


to listen to us.

Then the future will become the past. But this moment is the inverse of that—the past is about to become the future. It’s the dance of entropy and order. Because heaven is not a steady state—if it were, the term would be meaningless. To be itself, it must perpetually eclipse itself. To fall, that it may rise.

Where there’s free will (time), out of order will—eventually—come entropy. But where there’s God (timelessness), out of entropy will eventually come order. As any storyteller worth her salt can tell you, chaos is just order that hasn’t happened yet. And perfection is just an accident waiting to happen. 1 wants to become 0. And 0 wants to become 1.

And they do. The math of the universe is telling our story. When 0 “slips” and becomes 0 plus 1, God makes a new zero out of their sum, called 1. When 1 slips and becomes 1 plus 1, God makes a new zero called 2. When 2 slips and becomes 2 plus 1, God makes a new zero called 3. When 3 slips and becomes 3 plus 2, God makes a new zero called 5. The resulting Fibonacci sequence represents both growth and time. In truth, all numbers are just 1s and 0s, sin and redemption, matter and light. Or as they say in church: the greater the sin, the greater the grace.

When I was sick, something powerful dawned on me. It had been building for decades, but only when I was down on my back, alone and afraid, barely able to think or move, did it finally rise to the surface and make itself known: From that very first slap, this world has been trying to bully me. I decided I wasn’t going to be bullied anymore.

And that’s when I started to get better.

Don’t cower. Stand tall. Spread your wings. Don’t let the haters and the pessimists win. Love. Love everyone—forgive everyone everything. Wherever we find hate, we must meet it with an even greater love. Let the sun shine. It’s time.

The wave of truth is here already: seize it. Whatever harm was done to you in the past, or whatever harm you caused, bring it to the light and let it go. The gears of time are shifting, and we’re going to shift with it. Now is your chance to begin again.

I'm a daily Catholic mass-goer. I consider Jesus Christ to be the love of my life. The Catholic Church is my path to God, and I love her deeply.

But we have imprisoned God, and imprisoned ourselves. There isn't only one path to God. There is one God, but many paths. In fact, it’s all a path to God, who indwells everything in the universe. When we eat, we eat his body. When we drink, we drink his blood. There is only one God: Life itself.

Tikkun olam. To heal ourselves, we must heal our world. The synthetic chemicals, pesticides, preservatives, plastics are not capable of time contraction and light dilation at the same speed as we. It takes a disproportionately high amount of energy to make them expand apace with the quantum field, and when time switches gears, they contract with greater alacrity, emitting hideous fumes (Hawking radiation) as they do. They cannot come with us.

What’s time travel like in real life? You almost don’t know it’s happening. You just wake up in a different dimension, where instead of turning red, all the lights start turning green. If you’re reading this—and thank you, I know it’s been a lot—you’re already ascending. Here’s a bit of music that ought to help finish the job: Do You Hear the People Sing? Sung by 17 Valjeans from around the world.

Either way, we’re already saved. Jesus paid for everyone on the cross—all people, of all religions, across all time. Heaven is not a prize for the perfect. God the Father is the father in the story of the prodigal son. It doesn’t matter what we’ve done; He loves us. When we die, the gates of heaven fly open and our light reunites with the light of God. There is nothing on earth or in heaven that could keep us separate once we shuffle off this mortal coil. Light is infinite and indivisible: light is light is light. The Rapture—this transition from the past to the future time signature—is only a matter of how we spend our final incarnate years. I hope to spend mine in a paradise-on-earth, where the lion will lie down with the lamb, and we shall beat our swords into plowshares, and walk with God, and enjoy music and wine and love one another for a golden age of a thousand years. But regardless of how we spend our final incarnate years, our story does end.

But we are love, and love is eternal. And we are light, and light never dies. Our story has been told and is being told and will be told throughout all eternity. Our story never ends. Because the moment our story ends is the precise moment


our story begins.

“We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time.
Through the unknown, unremembered gate
When the last of earth left to discover
Is that which was the beginning;
At the source of the longest river
The voice of the hidden waterfall
And the children in the apple-tree

Not known, because not looked for
But heard, half-heard, in the stillness
Between two waves of the sea.
Quick now, here, now, always—
A condition of complete simplicity
(Costing not less than everything)
And all shall be well and
All manner of thing shall be well
When the tongues of flames are in-folded
Into the crowned knot of fire
And the fire and the rose are one.”

—T. S. Eliot, Four Quartets