I am looking at time as an electromagnetic field. I change my relationship to the field when I change my relative density. When I rise too far above the field, I experience it as only magnetism. When I dip too far below the field, I experience it as only electricity. I need to be able to both rise above and dip below the electromagnetic field in order to experience it as it should be experienced: electromagnetism.
When I rise too far above the field, my relative density is too low. I am too diffuse. When I am too diffuse, I will experience too much proton influx: too many protons moving inward across the cell membrane. This damages neurons. It also traps me. When I am experiencing calcium influx, how can I condense?
When I dip too low below the field, my relative density is too high. I am too dense. When I am too dense, I will experience too much proton efflux: too many protons moving outward across the cell membrane. This damages neurons. It also traps me. When I am experiencing calcium efflux, how can I expand?
When my density is too low, when I am too high above the field, I lose access to the room of the present. It is as if I am trapped in the attic; the ceiling of the present becomes my floor. Instead of experiencing electromagnetism, I experience only magnetism.
When my density is too high, when I am too far below the field, I lose access to the room of the present. It is as if I am trapped in the basement; the floor of the present becomes my ceiling. Instead of experiencing electromagnetism, I experience only electricity.
Glutamate, GABA; exhibition and inhibition: the movement of calcium is central to neurodegeneration.
Moreover, it is not just my calcium that is affected by the electromagnetic field. It is my iron. The way my iron experiences the electromagnetic field is evinced in the behavior of my blood. When I rise too high, and feel too much magnetism, I am forced to keep myself too vasodilated (Lou Gehrig’s disease?). While I am keeping myself too vasodilated, to keep the iron in my blood from condensing, I cannot condense.
The way my iron experiences the electromagnetic field is evinced in the behavior of my blood. When I dip too low, and feel too little magnetism, I am forced to keep myself too vasoconstricted (Parkinson’s?). While I am keeping myself too vasonconstricted, to keep my iron from exploding, I cannot expand.
There may be a kind of paradox at work. From the perspective of my blood, it is when I am too far above the electromagnetic field—too far “out” from the earth’s core, i.e. when time’s arrow is too long—that I feel the most magnetism. When I feel high magnetism, I want to move outward, to retain water, to expand. But the reason I am feeling high magnetism is I am already too expanded (Lou Gehrig’s disease).
From the perspective of my blood, it is when I am too far toward the center of the earth (where time’s arrow is too short, and the force of acceleration is too low), that I feel the least magnetism. When I feel too little magnetism, I want to move inward, to shed water, to condense. But the reason I am feeling low magnetism is I am already too condensed (Parkinson’s).
This theory is based on the idea of a holographic universe. What I am speaking about is essentially the issue of scale. When I am too large—too diffuse—the gravitational force overcomes me. These forces are at play, of course, not just for human beings, but for stars and black holes, for light itself:
