Blood Volume & ME/CFS

I am looking at holographic models of the universe where a lot of illness centers around issues of scale.

The scale at which the body is rendered is meant to scale with the size of the universe—the length of time’s axis.

If my understanding of time’s axis is too long, my understanding of light’s speed will be too high. My blood volume will be too high. My blood pressure will be too high. My heart rate will be too high. And my understanding of pH will be too high. Behind the scenes, I will be like a float in the Thanksgiving Day parade, while you are the size of a normal person. For you, walking to the refrigerator is no big deal. For me, it is like crossing the Sahara. If my brain does not understand time, it does not understand scale. But time is not something absolute; it is something we are creating.

First we make time (melatonin). Then we move through it (dimethyltryptamine/DMT). But … how much time should I make? How long is time’s axis?

If time’s axis is perceived as too long, in addition to the demand for melatonin being too high, the scale at which the body is rendered will be too large. Anti diuretic hormone (arginine vasopressin) can be being used to increase blood volume. Blood volume will be used here as a proxy for image size, i.e. holographic volume.

This results in a kind of optical illusion. The person with high blood volume appears to have problems with excessive vasodilation, with orthostatic intolerance and POTS symptoms. But perhaps the vasodilation is being kept too low because the systolic pressure is too high—which we don’t perceive, because the distance the blood is traveling is too long.

So …. picture a thermometer with a very long length. The pressure to get the fluid up to the top is very high. But if we read it from the top alone, without taking into account the distance it has traveled—which, how would we know?—it doesn’t read as high. It just looks normal. In other words, the fluid may read as being at the halfway mark, which is where it should be. But we don’t see that the thermometer itself is huge. The same way a person who is 6’5” can have a blood pressure reading that is 120/80, and a person who is 5’ can have a blood pressure reading that is 120/80. They look the same. But are they, really? Would they feel the same, if you were the blood? Because, for me, having to run around a track that is six feet five inches long in the same amount of time someone else runs around a track that is five feet long does not feel the same.

When you find an image on the Internet, sometimes if you try to stretch it with your fingers to make it larger, it bounces back to its original size. It lacks the energy, the pixel power, for the enlargement. But what if you were somehow able to force it to enlarge?

The degree to which the systolic reading is high may be hidden in the altitude, i.e. the distance blood has traveled, the “length of the track.” It is hidden in the blood volume, in other words, which is not something we overtly measure. We don’t measure it frankly—but we have indirect evidence that blood volume may be high in the body’s exaggerated use of anti diuretic hormone (arginine vasopressin). Are we using anti diuretic hormone to keep the blood volume high because our image of the body is too large, because our brain is reading time as too long?

Then the body becomes trapped. It has to keep the blood volume high and the systolic pressure high because the vasoconstriction is too low. And it has to keep the vasoconstriction too low because the systolic pressure is (sub-clinically) too high. We don’t see how high the pressure is because the distance the blood is traveling is so long. Kind of like an explosion that doesn’t feel like an explosion anymore because the observer is at its outermost regions.

But, why?

Well, let’s look at pH7. Let’s say pH7 is like the halfway mark of a thermometer that stretches from 0->14. If I think the thermometer is longer than you do, I will render pH7 differently. It may look the same, but instead of being “flat,” like yours, my pH7 has speed. Instead of water, I am fast ice—but you don’t see it, because my ice is spinning at water’s speed. My rendering of myself is incredibly strenuous and inefficient; first I am freezing myself, then I am running at the speed of light to counterbalance the freeze. Instead of green, I am 10x yellow + 10x blue. Or 100x yellow + 100x blue. Or 1000x yellow + 1000x blue.

One side of my nervous system thinks time is slower than it is. So the other side of my nervous system thinks time is faster than it is.

Once I think the world is more alkaline than it is—the way it would be, say, on top of the highest mountain, or in the future—I have to generate enough acidity to match. Once I think pH7 is as alkaline as it is on the highest mountain, I have to spin with the spin-rate of the lowest valley.

The more alkaline I read time to be, the wider I read time to be, the more acid I have to generate via my metabolism—and the longer time’s axis is. The more acidic I read time to be, the narrower I read time to be, the less acid I have to generate via my metabolism, and the shorter time’s axis is.

If I am way down low—i.e. at the altitude of Death Valley, or if I never stand up or leave my bed—it helps me to read time as short and acidic. So does DMT (or micro dose LSD or psilocybin). Melatonin, on the other hand, helps me to read time as long and alkaline.

But there’s a catch. Once I am reading time as short and acidic, once time’s axis is short for me, I can use that pent-up energy to zoom ahead—where time’s axis is even shorter. So once I have extra DMT, I go to a place where I need even more DMT. And once I am reading time as long and alkaline, once time’s axis is long for me, I can use that energy deficit to slide backward—where time’s axis is even longer. Once I have a melatonin surplus, I go to a place where I need even more melatonin. It’s like having a brain that is addicted to DMT, or addicted to melatonin. We don’t want to spiral too far in either direction, it can damage our perception of what time really looks like.

Just some ideas. Please let’s all keep thinking about this, the people I know with ME/CFS are suffering and they are dying—my friend Heather Colman-McGill, my friend Kristina Hines—and they are largely being neglected by medical research.

UPDATE: Peripheral resistance—the need for the size of the blood cells and the blood vessels to approximately match—may also be part of the issue. Healthy cells are seen here as distinctly SMALLER than post-COVID blood cells. I have learned so much from videos like this one. Please let us not silence scientists. It is anathema to our ability to advance as a society, and an insult to integrity and truth.

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